EPISODE Part 254-255

EPISODE Part 254-255

~ Realizations & Revelations ~

"Aur jo chot tum ne mujhe pohnchai hai uska kia..."..[ What about the wound you've given me] ..Arnav spilled the half truth of his pain that day after finding his life and bringing her back home, realizing that without her he is nothing...and she asked,"Kya.." aap yahan se aise nahin ja sakte jab tak aap humain yeh nahin batate keh hum ne aapko kaisi chot  pohnchai hai.." ...[What? You can't go anywhere without telling me what kind of wound I've given you...?]...

Khushi had no idea the depth of his love and the wound he's been scratching in his frustration of being mad at himself loving her the way he does.But after his departure Khushi is recollecting the gems of his deep love which he scattered all around her since the day one. Just like Buaji explained the virtues of Khushi to him by taking examples of chillies, Naniji disclosed Arnav's motives to Khushi by the story of his childhood."Jab wo kissi ke waste kuch nahin kar sakat hain to khud ko hi saza daine lagat hain...aise hi hain  humare Chote..." ...[When He can't do anything for anyone then he punished himself...] This is the key element which is awakening her conscious about all the encounters where she misjudged him since guesthouse incident till now.Now she knows the reason of his wound and the depth of his love for him and the reason of his hatred towards his loving her.

New morning has risen a new wave of tremor in RM without any movement or trail but Khushi is following that trail unintentionally.She is missing Arnav so much and his name and khiyal[thoughts] are making her more and more restless.Food and Khushi's worries are friends like forever...She makes breakfast for Anjali and takes it to her room and gets a glimpse of first trail...Will Papers...

I must say"kanwa chala hans ki chaal aur khud ki chall bhool baitha..." you know what I'm saying...In Arnav's absence Shyam is thinking he is the one who will rule all...time will tell Mr Slither...

Here also connects Payal's cut pics pieces...which Mamiji is figuring out ...yes puzzle pieces where Mamiji will also help her to join together to get the puzzle pieces of Shyam and later Nk will join and Payal will open her mouth too.Meaning whole family will complete this puzzle of Shyam which only Khushi and Arnav has seen yet.

Lovely touch of outdoor and Naniji & Anjali's attempt to bring Shyam into light ...with them in Mandir...Khushi takes the opportunity to find about the papers , a trail towards her suspicious...but her restlessness about Arnav has not gone unnoticed by them either.But her disappointment grabs her not finding papers as Slither is one step ahead of her.His sardonic and vicious smile just disgusts me... 

The emergence of a woman through every word and action is shaping up a new storm behind this temporary calmness of the surroundings.The brewing up anger in her is settling into deep concerns, concerns are raving up into realizations and that turns hopes up with rebellious desires "to be with him" no matter what , "to claim him as hers" no matter what ...indeed "ek din nafrat bhi sharma jati hai ...agar ek mauqa diya jaye..."..[Hate gets defeated in front of love eventually]... 

She is entering the temple where he broke her fast on Teej .Her each step is closer to that eternal touch of his by sipping the "Abe Hayat" which he gave her couple of months ago but she scolds at him for that "Why did you give me that ... you broke my fast", yes broken fast "mujhe nahi pata tha keh tumhara...tum behosh  ho rahi theen.."[ u were getting fainted..I didn't know you are fastening]...He never knew about Her getting trapped into Shyam's games but he still saved her from all the dizziness of this whole game under DeviMaiya's supervision...He offered her eternal life with him and that's what he's been offering her all along either in hate or love and today she understood that by embracing each step towards it.She got the real meaning of his each action and her each step is getting forward with redemption f her misunderstanding him...Sad Rabba Ve joins her distraught condition...

She is standing in front of Lord Shiv  not Devi Maiya and praying for her Arnavji's welfare as his wife... aap bas unka khyal rakhein aur haan unn se kahiyega jaldi wapas aa jayain"...[ Just take care of him and please tell him to come back soon]

Shiv,The Lord of "mercy and repentance" ...as She is repenting for all of her actions today .Lord Shiv also has the power  vanquishing evil and  she is gathering that from Lord Shiv to vanquish Shyam's evil plot as their positions [Khushi is in between Shyam and Anjali]...while standing in front of Shiv is ringing those bells. "aap hamein chodiye...hum apni mushkile khud suljha lenge...aur haan  "humne apni dil ki baat aapke saamne rakhi,yeh baat aap Devi Maiyya se mat kahiyega". [ I can take care of myself..Don't tell DeviMaiya that I opened up in front of you]...Last time she declared to Devimaiya that she won't speak to her and doesn't have any intension to stay here but today she is here for her husband...her Arnavji...She has done every ritual under Devi Maiya's supervision and today she is completing the circle with Lord Shiv with her pure , innocent and eternal acceptance of her Love for Arnavji..."Apne pati keh liye..jinse hum bohat pyar karte hain.." and She will declare these words to the Evil later.

Khushi is asking strength for him , so he can fight with all the demons within and around him. Here comes Anjali's words with Arnav in front of the mirror..."tum khud bhi nahi jante keh tumhain Khushiji  ka kitna Khiyal hai..."and that made him realize to say "I love you.." because he just does and doesn't want any reason to do so...For Khushi here comes Naniji's words..."hamre chotey hai na agar woh kisi se pyaar karte hain aur unke liye kuch nahi kar sakte to khudhi ko sazaa dene lag jate hain"

 

She was upset that day after his accusation and she ended up making Jalaibis thinkingwhy did he accuse of that? Today she ended up making Jalaibis too.My grabber is Shyam's reaction when Anjali teases Khushi...he closes his eyes...He knows She loves Arnav but his lust and revenge to make her his has not ended yet.Khushi is like a fish out of water ,runs in her room and cries her heart out along with Rabba Ve."Why did I make Jalaibis when he is not even here"...

He loves to eat her Jalaibis and she used to make for him in his Lunch box besides his anger because she saw her man licking his fingers enjoying what she makes.He never asks for it but she knew it and today she is doing it unintentionally remembering all those moments...She remembers how her jalaibis revived him from his low sugar attack...

She was making Jalaibis finding the reason of his chot and how she is the reason for it and today again she is making Jalaibis to find the reason of him messaging her only not di or anyone else...getting frustrated and hurt thinking that he might be in danger but he never did it .He left me Airport like that and all...kuch bura...he is in trouble...her heart is listening his "Chot" ...

 

 

Today the soothing sound of spreading pearls make her understand the true meaning of Arnav's pearled oceanic Love which is way deeper than anything...Which was always around her to sooth her from every storm and today she is feeling alone walking , facing the heat of it but his Love is her strength and that will light her path to find all the treasures of their moments to go through this darkness till she finds him..."hum ne aapko dhoond hi liya" ...till then he will be his guardian angel of strength..."aap hi hamari taqat thai..." [u were my strength] ...Yes she has unlocked the real meaning of Love of the man who is everything for her since from the beginning and today she wants to claim him...to embrace him..the way he is ..

      

Kuch rishtey ajeeb hi Dor mein bandhey hotey hain

Takraar se shuru hote hain...Nafrat ke saaye mein panapte hain

Girte hain...padte hain...par Kaayam rahte hain

Nafrat badhti jaati hai...aur Rishtey ki gaanth aur gehri hoti jaati hai

Itni ki ek din Nafrat bhi aur badhne se sharma jaati hai

Aur woh rishta sirf ek bandhan bankar reh jaata hai,lekin sirf Nafrat waala

Kabhi kabhi aisa lagta hai...Nafrat ke us maahaul mein kuch to hai

Jo humse kehta hai - 

is unsuni,anjaane se,ankahe se rishtey ko ek mauka to do

Some relations are tied in an odd knot,They start with a conflict,They grow in the shadows of hatred

They fall ,they declined but remained intact,the hatred continues to grow

And the bond of relationship keeps getting tighter

So much that one day hate even shies away advancing any further...

And that relationship becomes a BOND But a bond of hatred only

But there is something says in this hatred environment that

give a chance to this unknown, unheard and unsaid feeling

Par jis rishtey ki neev hi Nafrat pe rakhi gayi ho -

Uss sey kuch bhi ummeed lagaana naadani nahi to aur kya hoga

Aur shaayad yeh naadani hum kar baithe hain

warna kyun itni nafrat ke baawjood hamein aapki yaad aa rahi hai

Kyun hum aapse ladte hain,jhagarte hain...laikin aapke jaane ke baad

Aapki hi ki raah dekhte hain, hawaon se aapki baatein karte hain...

But it is foolish to have a hope for any hatred relationship

But may be I did that foolishness already

Otherwise why I can't forget you even in the state of extreme hate

I fought with you but seeing your way in your absence

Talking about you with the wind

she remembers how he reached to save her in guest house , how he was there holding her in his arms while saving her from a car, he was there all along besides his hate to save her , to save his di...He was hurt by her actions for not trusting him enough telling him the truth but he was there as always...

She remembers him pulling her in mandir , dropping the dash of sindoor making her his...and that makes her comes down on her knees near the poolside in that transparent shallow water where everything seems clear to her...His "chot" which she couldn't see before and now wants winds to take her message to him "Hum Jante hain keh aap hum se kitna pyar karte hain..." [ I know how much you love me...] from "Hamesha" ..She will say these words to her man later but winds might carry these now to sooth him...because he is in pain because of her

 Khushi's each line is enveloped in layers and layers of pain, yearning, forlorn and discontent but right from her Heart dipped in pure Love... which is bleeding for him only..Yes This is a merger phase from "Hate to Love"..."Main tum se nafrat kar hi nahi paya...hum ne kitni koshish ki aapse pyar na karne ke liye.."...Today she cried her heart out to clear all the dust of dust...yes she loves him , she just does ,the way he does... Fadak padta hai from both sides...

Tu hi Bata Mere Maula ...sings their agony...

like the  first one when Khushi landed in his office,in his life, in his world with contract of life and his di tells him a girl will come and his sansain ruk jayengi...second when he dropped sindoor in collision on Bhersarai...teej...third after their first hug...he lands his hand on her to be her protector forever, then arousing a woman in her on Diwali but with heartbreak and then bandaging her wounded heart wrapping his name on her in mandir before anyone could even claim her...and then finally today completely arousing her feelings, making her realize his TRUE love...it wil come last time on I love u dammit...when her search for him will stop forever...

I must say they both have crossed Millenium to reach at this point.

Anjali brings her food while Slither takes it to Khushi , a new way of his getting closer to his prey...but she has to see his extreme side before coming out of her good cloak and that is why she has to see the mirror image of a guy eating Daal full of chillies...

 

                      BUT KHUSHI HAS TO GET THE "CHOT" TO SEE HIS REAL FACE...