Episode 250

EPISODE 250

The Reflection...

Without reflection, we go blindly on our way, creating more unintended consequences, and failing to achieve anything useful.~~Margaret J.Wheatley~~

I love the set up of this episode right from the start...It started with Lots of Reflections of Shyam in his office and his each and every dialogue,which was a true reflection of his intention and character for Khushi and that is why since today he will be under her Radar...Brilliant creators...Upcoming track is Khushi's realization and reflection towards her deep LOVE for Arnav and her deep HATE for Shyam.This track will provide her true picture of Shyam  and her true feelings for  Arnav.Yes Reflection ! This episode is reflecting their inner turmoil for their next moves...as game is so on...Shyam's "Aap toh aise bol rahi hain, jaise aap humhein jaante hi nehin, humarein raashtein mein aane ki koshish bhi mat kijiyega". Shows how desperately he is making mistake to show his weakness and putting Khushi's mind at suspicious point.He proves really so dumb in his desperation.He has no idea that every thread of his move  will be cut not other than Khushi who he is threatening right now. He is the biggest fool ever as "hum apne pair par kuldhadi..." Really...you already did that when Arnav confronted you and today you are doing it in front of Khushi...waking her mind.."apne dimag par..."Stupid move Mr Slither!!!...as Khushi is at her best in stress and anger because Khushi is more of a visceral than a thinker...But this is also a warning point for Khushi too..aap humain janti nahin" as she only knows him as a skirt chaser but now she will see the true REFLECTION of him which she can't even imagine.."hum kissi bhi hud tak jaa sakte hain..."...as he will go any length to kill Arnav for his motives...and even Arnav with his brilliant brain couldn't think of "Are u sure Khushi??" as it takes him to digest when Khushi tells him about his kidnapper...

His threat ,"hum aapko barbaad kar sakte hai..." yes this is what, making Khushi quiet and retreat as Shyam who created mess in Lukhnow to bring her in Delhi, became PG in their house, did spread the cheap tricks to be engaged with her and all...as he knows how important this respect is for Guptas but again he is totally unaware of Arnav and his deep relations with Guptas...and here comes Buaji's words to Mamiji as Arnav did find the true and pure Love in Gupta house as compared to RM.{GH track is a binding thread and reflects true Love for Arnav"itti achi parvarish..."}...This threat will come and Shyam will play his move through Dadi...but at that time Arnav will be up front stopping every hand and finger which point at his Khushi...

 Shyam used Arnav's weakness for Khushi and planted the seed of doubt but made a mistake..."Rani Sahiba beech main aagayein" and today he is using Khushi's weakness and making mistake,"Kaise apne humain apne pyar keh jaal main phansaya tha..."...Bingo ! Khushi has found a thread of Arnav's confusion and true reflection of Shyam's filthy intentions today...because he confirms it" sale sahib..humari baat pe yoon vishwas kar laingey.." he snaps his fingers...too good as Shyam is totally unaware of ArHi's convo"main tumhain aur Shyam ko ..."...as Shyam is totally unaware of Arnav and Khushi's equation...Very Nice move...because Shyam's every intention has been revealed to Arnav and Khushi at this point...Only family is the next one to be revealed by his true face and that process is going to start from now on...First Mamiji,2nd NK, then Naniji [remember Khushi gave whaite Majori to Naniji inher Will] Akash through Payal.Only Anjali will remain out of this true reflection because of her closed eyes and mind...Here comes Shyam's snapping of confidence because of Anjali...

Don't forget, Khushi's words"Anjaliji apni ankhain kholiye.." will come into the picture but she will refuse it...Today Anjali is a pillar for Arnav and Khushi and will remain till Shyam's true reflection,then it will be Naniji who will be true Raizada Support for Khushi and Arnav...

Here comes Khushi who took papers from a dark reflection which connects with Babli's words to Payal" I will bandage myself..."but where?Wound is not there...Khushi wants Arnav to believe her but her following this dark reflection is wrong...Here comes Arnav's words"tum har kaam khud nahin kar saktin"...but she can't see the a slightest reflection of hate and rejection in Arnav's eyes...She is not doing to clear her name for herself but deep down she senses that it pains Arnav seeing her in that light...and to alleviate Arnav's pain she is listening to this slither patiently...but making a mistake showing him vulnerability and here fits Payal's words to Babli..."zakham ko aise khula chodna..."...because Shyam is using her vulnerability in his favor...

 

Khushi ,the Queen waits for her King who is busy in his meeting.He comes with his pawns and gets halts in his tracks seeing her.There is a small smile spreads on her face seeing him relax but he forwards with his unwillingness, he wants to turn and that is my grabber , this is the first time he didn't turn his face completely as his heart wants to do it badly but his mind filled with anger makes him follow his stern attitude and he ends up in his glass walls cabin where no sound of heart is reaching today.She sits again like no one exists in her surroundings,...

Like "maile main tanha"...She is reminding me of the song "Tanhaiye" from Dil chahta hai.."..Yes when all the"shor"[noise] and ghema ghemi[ hustle and bustle ] loses it's existence in front of inner shor and hustle bustle...She is an orphan and the person who saved her from being one is not even looking at her...Horrible feelings...

 

Both are in deep pricking pain , one is hurt beyond imagination and the other is trying to eradicate the source of pain being in guilt.Both are right at their positions but both are adamant to be stubborn. My grabber is both know each other's actions and the reason of it but don't want to acknowledge it.They both are also pained being the cause of each other's pain.They want to reach out to one another ,want to ease the torment of all of these, want to dissolve the agony existing between them but the current situation stops them to do so.

He watches her while working and then her "pukar" [calling] reaches to him from one opened window...he approaches to the spot, looks down to her, their eyes meet and share the misery , treachery ,anguish , and envy with the cry of Rabba Ve.He knows he did hurt her by shattering her dreams, by tainting her character, and broke every reason to be with each other but she is still here with all of her care and love... He knows he is still hurting her beyond any limit and that pricks him in deep pain and the only way out is the cloak of ASR and a distance from her.He strides out quick without listening to her...My grabber is Khushi always barges in his office without hesitation but today she waits for his call...respects the distance he has created ,stays put with time and that shows him ,her care, understanding and concern for him...

This is when he was standing in his cabin after feeling her presence in AR and she comes to take her stuff with her...That day he wanted to speak with her and she was up to no mood regardless of his anger and command and she leaves for Hamesha...today she wants to talk to him and he leaves her in despair...That day she didn't give him a chance to clear his side and today he did the same with her...

Same with her reflection on the car window, during Teej she was ignoring her and he was looking at her attentively and waits for her look and then his SUV move forward but today it is vice versa.

 

He is ignoring Khushi's reflection and increasing distance as his reflected views about the current circumstances are making his vision at distant...

He ate his dinner again alone, going back to his routines as he is increasing distance...his past pains are making it worse...but he can't take the same thought and actions from Khushi when she shows it to him...in the room...

He comes to his room where Khushi just put her intuition at high level by putting the dark file aside .He enters the room and notices the changes immediately .His sense of being rejected and abandoned releases the simmering lava in one shoot by calling out her name..."Khushi!!!...and demanding answers of her actions by digging his fingers in her skin..."Kiss ne permission di tumhain "...[Who gave u permission to change the room] ..and soon his raging lava goes down by her dejected words "kissi ne bhi nahi aur yeh baat aaj humain pata chali..."[ no one and I found this today..]... My heart aches for her this moment and that's why I said that before while she was sitting in the office...An orphan , an unwanted and unimportant person...by everyone since from childhood as being reminded over and over .He was the one who she always thinks of as hers and he is the one who gave her this right to think like that...to go any extent with him since the day she met him...

Khushi's makes him realize the intensity of his punishment which he is giving her...and himself ...She reminds him of her betrayal and that causes a constant rage and pain in him.He flinges her stars again towards poolside..."tum jab chaho badal nahin saktti ho..."..Brilliant ...If she wants to hold on to this thread and made him realize this morning...then he wants that too regardless in anger and rage he is confused but he is adamant and can't accept her out of his life either... but by throwing out those stars first at GH terrace and now here in RM he is stamping at her belief that she means nothing to him...Yet She is the "brightest star" I his life...a "Dhaga" thread keeping his life intact to her and himself... but today She is becoming a "Falling Star"  as he threw them like throwing all of her beliefs.

 

That day they were all watching the "Toota Huwa Taara (Falling Star)" and Arnav said - "Aur jo taara khud khatam ho raha hain, woh mujhe kya dega?" Today that Star, Khushi Kumari Gupta is falling very hard as she lost everything that she had; she lost her parents and also she lost the"Trust" that a lover only wants from her love; this star is so helpless that she had no choice to take the help from the dark devil just to clear her name  from only one person who matters her the most . After "amawas" Arnav will be the one who will will seek love, trust and forgiveness from this"Falling Star". And that was the Anjali's wish -"Chote ke zindagi mein koi aisa aaye jo inke dil ke dard ko humesha ke liye khatam kar de..." ..isn't Khushi doing all along?

 

  Her next words halts him at his anguish path " jab aapko humari shakal dekhna hi pasand nahi hai tou humara samaan , humari cheezon se ghira rehna aapko kitni takleef daita hoga..."[when u don't wanna see me then how painful it would be for you seeing my things around u]...and this is intolerable for him, The girl he accused of heinous acts was trying to ease his hurt.Why would she think so much about his pain?Why ? and Khushi has no idea that all of this is adding to his injuries...

 

Love the anger of Arnav...instead of his dangerous silence...He put up with Khushi's every action and kept his temper under control but after the telling her the truth , his hostility and resentment is at it's peak.He can't stand any separation from her side but can't remain in her proximity either and finding ways to be away from her as seeing her in pain is extremely agonizing him.He would prefer the torture of her presence than her rejection for him.The FEAR of losing her again brings him back to her...When she tries to leave the room , he hisses out and drags her back in his room, within walls with him.The dreadful night he forcibly made her sleep out there and today again he forced her to sleep in the room.The AIR which he was considering poisonous sharing with her is now his NEED of survival to ease all the poison in his life.Loop is closed today...

Her presence means everything to him whether he accepts it or not ...Their contradictory actions speak louder than their words as there is an underlying string, a thread which is keeping them attached together and that would never be broken, not now, not ever.

 

 They both are used to sleep seeing each other every night but today it seems painful. They might not be seeing each other eye to eye but the guidance of their heart eyes will make them see the right and wrong during this whirlpool of time...