EPISODE 195

EPISODE 195

  Whispering Hearts...

Heart and it's heartbeat can't be separated from souls who have no control of this desirous and passionate felt rhythm in their lives .The captivated an spell bounded moments leaves a scar in you for forever and that is exactly happening here.Arnav is trying to hate her as much as he can yet falling for her each moment.The greater the distance he tries to create , the closer he gets to her.Her oath while holding the mangalsutre is all she got and have faith in it..."He will be mine.." just like he marked her in rage according to her faith"You are mine..."[aaj se tum meri patni ho...]

 

Anjali brings Khushi in her room after decorating the sage and goes out to send Arnav in.Shyam doesn't want to leave his beauty and still lingers around Arnav's doorstep.Arnav catches Shyam ogling at his wife and that brings a face off time between the two but Anjali saves her hubby as always by calling him out.He leaves with his twitchy legs leaving the roaring Lion for his lioness.

 

Arnav enters the room , locks the door and  turns around and there is a moment of his dream which is whispering his heart here.He is stunned and lost by the spell binding beautified vision he encounters. His face relaxes for couple of seconds with whispering Rabba Ve before the memory flashes back and tension rests in his muscles. He turns away from her as he doesn't want to see her or wish to create a haunted memory but it's far behind his control.To run away from this misery he throws out blistery words of hate at her which put her at scorching fire. Just Think, being in his shoes it is hard for him to be with a cheater in one room as Khushi's character has been tainted in front of him.This is all one big misunderstanding because of misconceptions and he will get this later whatever is seen is not true.

 

 Khushi demands to know the reason of the marriage if it hurts him so much and why is he hurting him and her in return.Her double meaning  comment "Na hum apke saath iss ghar main rehna chahte hain aur na iss kamre main..."[I don't want to live with you in this house or in this room...] ...That boils the magma in him as he assumes she wants to stay with Shyam...and he spills the beans of the reason without revealing the story "tum jahan rehna chati ho na wanhan reh paoogi aur na yahan..."[ you won't be able  to live there where you want or here with me..] but Khushi is way innocent in this matter and doesn't register the true meaning of it.She is truly showing her trait here as she cares for others more than her.She knows there is a reason and he is not telling her yet she is still concerned about his hurt than hers .

So a ruthless Arnav drags her harshly and throws her out of the room "aaj se tumhari jagha wahan hai aur meri yahan.."[ from today your place is outside and mine is inside.].Khushi just keeps staring at him without protesting . Arnav closed the door without putting a single thought into it and walks away from the door creating a distance from her. Khushi stands outside flummoxing over the change in the man, a man who couldn't bear a smallest wound on her , a man who was scared of her being fainted, a man who gifted her wishes and now that healer is the one who is puncturing wounds in her heart slowly yet sharply.Here comes Arnav's mom's letter and Kangan which will be in the picture.Khushi's holding her Mangalsutre as an oath to win him back.

 

PONDERING CONNECTED DOTS:The sliding Door closed , as Khushi slid it close before ...At that time too there were intruders in between them ,La and Shyam .  Now the shadow of Shyam is hovering around them. Khushi had shut the door convinced that Arnav did not love her .. "mujhe tumhare hone na hone se koi farak padta hai then forget it..."[ you don't exist for me , ] ...the very same way "you mean nothing to me..."She had walked away leaving him alone...Today he shuts the door on her , convinced that She does not love him and he means nothing to her...BUT he is lying again by saying this.Their physical distance has no meaning as this is a circle which remains in between them either he starts or she , doesn't matter.

 

This night has no end as it progresses but Arnav is not able to run away from this vortex.He gets up to get the blanket as feeling cold when the reality hits him and he recollects the moments when in Nainital he threw her out of the room in cold and she got sick.His eyes transfers to her site on its own accord and gets shivering whispers in his spine seeing her trembling and huddling in cold.

Arnav walks towards the door and jerks up seeing her shaking and immediately wants to call her in yet he controls this urge. But he fails to control his emotions though and he hits uncontrollable passion on recliner .He prevents himself from going to her yet his eyes never leaves her alone.Standing in the middle of the room trying to suppress his emotions ,venting on the destruction of  the  decorations but his heart cannot ignore the soft whispering of her heart which she already gave it to him. Those murmured feelings take over his hate and anger and without thinking much he pulls the blanket and walks towards the whispering heart of Khushi.He paused again as being trapped by haunting brutal memories and his ego doesn't allow him to let her see his vulnerability. He composes himself for putting his fake mask of ASR.He opens the door and throws the blanket  on the startled face of Khushi.But Khushi's self respect doesn't allow her to accept this indignity and she angrily throws it away to convey him she would prefer the cold to such humiliation. Arnav receives her rejection and walks away and sits on the recliner as this is the worse punishment "her rejection for him". He was trying to separate her very existence from himself but unaware that it would affect him only in the end.

Arnav is fighting a war within,as he wants her inside but his egoistic and self controlled nature doesn't allow him and at the top he is being betrayed by his self imposed punished memories which are haunting him down every second along with Khushi's piercing quizzical hurtful eyes. But he doesn't want to be vulnerable to more hurt yet still can't shrug off the hurt and questions in her eyes which he caused but she is not even accusing him.Her silence is killing him as much as his strangeness is stabbing her.He turns his face as he can't take it any more especially her innocence and ethereal beauty which makes him weak and that's what not ASR's trait.As he is shattered he misunderstood her completely and he is more shattered for making himself look like a boy toy to her, kind of.He can't be weak.He sits on recliner as he can't stay away from his Khushi"khushi se door jane main kyuon itni taqleef ho rahi hai.."[Why it is so hard to go away from Khushi?] will come later but has settled in his skin deep down  a long time ago.He is fidgeting with his struggle to hate her while she is crying outside.He sleeps inside on the recliner in cold while she shivers outside.Nani's words which Khushi will understand later,"agar Chote kissi keh waste khuchu nar kar sakat hai tou khud ko hi saza dewat hai.."[If Chote can't do anything for any one then punish himself] This is the hurting path that will prove how lucky he has been to have been loved by the girl who is pure golden at heart and not a gold digger as he predicted.

Its the pain and the hurt that brings them closer .Khushi abuses him and teases him but couldn't stop loving him and he hurt her, abuses her, ridicules her yet couldn't stop loving her. "kitni koshish ki tum se nafrat karne ki par kar nahin paya...kitni koshish ki aap se pyar na karne ki par humre dil ne humari baat nahin mani..."[I tried my best to hate you but couldn't ...how much I tried not to love you but my heart didn't listen to me either] Telepathy and their confession is setting its roots here. But seriously, I feel for both of them today.

 

The mighty Arnav Singh Raizada have certainly understood that Diwali night he had entered the most sacred place in this world, Khushi's heart. That moment near pool when he was about to seal his love on her, She indeed had submitted her heart that day, she went with the flow. Yet the Rajkumar was not ready. His hasty decision that night the repercussions of which the destined girl still feels is here he is facing today.That day he left her at the pool side all alone shattered while he was with the crowd rejoicing on his sudden decision but he wasn't happy as his eyes were scanning his Khushi's reaction and her tears which made him died thousands times  as he had hurt the most important who is the destined to be his heart."apni zindagi ka hissa banaoonga hamesha hamesha keh liye..."[I will make you the part of my life for eternity] will come later. 

Today is the day again we have the same moment with a slight difference. One impulsive decision of his has again affected the lives of these two. This time the Rajkumare was ready but he had found the Rajkumari on the wrong end . As what goes around comes around. what he had sowed on Diwali night he is reaping it now.We have a capability to create our own fate but destiny is written by some one else. Today the same scene where Khushi is in the pool side all alone and he is inside his room on the recliner and each scrutinizing each other's state.Her questionable looks, his pleading her to somehow prove his thinking wrong shows that the tables have turned. His family is not with him But both time the mighty Mr. ASR had Khushi beside him to cry with him. Yes, once a woman has given you her heart, you can never get rid of her. She'll always be with you; it doesn't matter how many times you say ' "You don't mean a thing to me".

  

 He is the one who did not even pause for a sec to drop her from his office, he is the one who showed no mercy leaving her in the dark cold rom of Naninital and slept  peacefully but Today the same man  can't see her shivering in cold , he is thinking only about her safety  to alleviate her pain , her misery.Memories of the rainy night when Khushi was shivering in the parking lot and The great ASR had  thrown his coat over to her but Khushi rejected it in return.That day he walked away leaving her but not today... he is affected by this rejection,,he can't maintain the same unflappability or calmness.There is a storm in her silence, in her rejection, in her quizzical eyes.He's been rejected in his whole life since his childhood and that is not settling with him , not at all but unlike the others he can't do damage to this girl , she is his part...His heart which is his life line.

The sun rises with new layers to peel off in this anguish moment.The two hurting alienated hearts are still in the same position when Anjali comes to wake em up.Arnav jerks up and without thinking a second and goes to wake Khushi up who is deeply asleep. Arnav quickly picks her up  and at her irritation just puts her down hastily in their room.He cleans up the mess of the room and tells her to play along which she completely to abide by. Love her here..Anjali hands Khushi  her sari and walks away  ignoring her Chotey while Khushi walks away to washroom after giving him a fuming stare.Poor Chote is caught in between his  two important ladies and has no clue how to handle their wrath.

Pause here: This is for those who says Khushi didn't put her fight with him as she is doing exactly what she took oath for holding the mangalsutre.She will win his heart and that's exactly what she is achieving here.Everytime he hurts her , gets hurt back in return and come closer to her. Why the heck Khushi is quiet ...here comes Mom's letter and Kangan...Khushi is doing exactly as she had held that Mangalsutre as an oath.She has to win him and she is .His struggle to hate her is losing its grip."Bear his anger and return love with interest " and that's what is coming in the picture

She is not backing down from her lioness side as what she said in her spunky way.."ok let Anjali know what you did to me..".She is a true mate of him...I love her and her wise brain as her provocative nature is really a compatible one with ASR's hasty ones.She is the one who puts halts on his own actions and makes him traces back to her.

 

The sisters scene was quite appealing one as Payal's relief when Nani intervenes for Khushi to let her cook was worth watching. Her silent handing over of the oil shows her care for Khushi which brings a soft teary smile on Khushi's face.These two sisters can't remain silent for long astheir bond is way strong and deep. After Khushi's chirpiness Payal again demands to know the reason for Khushi's hasty decision.She even makes her feel guilty to make her confess but Khushi holds back. Payal gets disappointed  and hurt at Khushi's lack of trust and leaves Khushi alone who just gets another burning mark on her soul.