Episode 252-253

EPISODE 252-253

The rise of Inamorata...

..."agar aap aise chale jayengey tou hum saans hi nahin..."[I won't be able to breath in your absence]...Arnav who was trapped in this all along is stunned seeing his Khushi in the same vortex but he couldn't handle it again as always and left her but their connection has reached to the next level.The level of intensity where he was since from the beginning is reaching to her core after him cupping her face and pleading to free him from all the burden he's been carrying since that dreadful night screaming in his deep love ,"Khushi mujhe batana Zaroori nahin samjha"[U didn't feel the NEED to tell me] ...finding out the truth of his pain and being that reason ,finding out that he is the Shaitan in her Rajkumar's visage to jolt her up from her slumber, an emergence of an inamorata has taken that shape, a shape of DURGA Ma, who fights for her loved ones by remaining alert to vanquish all eyes who even think to pry on em...Khushi ,Buaji's"Titliya" is transforming into "Parmeshwari"...

Just like Arnav , he is going to be "NandKishore"  as Buaji said welcoming Arnav as a damad in GH "Nandkishore aye gaye..."...

 

The connection of hearts happened the day she landed in his arms yet confession occurred with awareness on Holi but Khushi was totally in inebriated form to accept that as compared to Arnav. Diwali night she surrendered to her love first time and then got crushed in between those gripping feelings. She had let her emotions get under the blanket of hibernation even after the realization of her true feelings for him especially after the terrace night. She got shattered in this delusional ocean of Love as Arnav's attitude and actions had changed her perception for him as her trust over him did shake its walls. But Khushi was totally unaware of Arnav's feelings and the motives behind these acts . The realization is seeping in that the man who she thought of a Rakshas without feelings is the man who really loved her and now hated her for that reason. She was responsible for this Hate and misunderstanding in between them and knows how much he is in pain because of her..." aur humari wajha se aapka Dukh aur badh raha hai...[your pain is increasing because of me]...and that is ripping her inside out as a guilt... "ek baar humari baat sun lete to...jaana zaruri tha kya..." [what could go wrong if he heard me once , it was necessary to go right now]...She indeed is floating in the ocean of deep guilt and Love.

The rise of inamorata takes charge of keeping her knotted Love to be strong , by making Arnav aware of her intensions..."jab bandh liya hai tou" ...and declaring evil who is real owner of her HEART and rejecting his filthy intentions at the Airport delivering him real message"Arnav is may be out of sight but not out of mind or heart" but totally ignored the evil is one step ahead...Shyam has reached to the will but totally unaware of that this will has no meaning without keeping Arnav alive...Excellent CVs.

 

Small but very effective scenes , Anjali and Khushi's bond like two sisters which will be stronger than ever this period.Love the way she put her head in her lap, feeling him through his Di, through his part...his mehsoos... He accused her off destrying this Di's marriage while she is searching for  him in the very same person...Second... A wife's natural instinct and her focal point is always her husband in his absence and that is absolutely done beautifully ,Quiet, empty , forlon room like her life without him...

Her seeing room empty was draining for her , just like he had his world empty when she wasn't talking to him and staying away from him.Today she is seeing him on recliner where he always used to close his day after enveloping her peaceful vision in his eyes.She remembers how they both fought for it to sleep.

Bali night, her Manglasutre was entangled in his shirt ,a dori , a Dhaga, which she never wanted but meant everything to her since then.She holds on to it in her clutch as instinctively , in her 6thsense every wife does when she feels her husband is in danger.At the same time she so wanted him to let her cry by holding him but he left without giving her a solace...she so wanted him to be there with her by her side.She remembers how he was sleeping holding her hand , she sleeps in pain clenching her fist till he calls her out...Khushi!!!

 

Her subconscious is reeling the moments of their connection in such a way that her guilt is taking over her conscious . She never knew of Arnav's collection of their connective objects and the reason of their captivity .That is coming to her now  but her remorse is pulling her towards this maze strongly that she is losing her balance of mind but again their connection of hearts is shifting to soul connection .They are reaching to next level where their frame of reference doesn't need their presence anymore and they can feel each other's distress and trouble from miles...She somehow is feeling his distress and he is feeling hers and that's why he is calling her over and over and not letting her disappear in this DARK maze of guilt and vortex of despair. He is awakening her Love.

 

She had given him the mannat chaabi and left him but her blood meaning her heart brought him back to her , the Payal she left for him unintentionally yet his heart found   the connection but he put on her to accept this connection , and the pearls which are scattered on the floor under her feet meaning she was misunderstanding the purity of his Heart and Love just like he was doing by throwing em away once.

These Pearls are emotions of all colors which they share with each other inside the ocean of their hearts.These are their deep wishes which they have for each other more than the depth of an ocean.These are the pains which they share by destiny and bring uproar of this ocean in their lives when they feel it.These are the eyes through which they acknowledge each other and dignify each other .These Pearls are the stars which are the reasons of their existence in this world and far from the distance smiling at them at their pure but delusional hearts.These are the desires which are longing ,yearning ,and embarking in their hearts and making them agitated to be with each other.These Pearls are the purity of love for each other which is so precious and  flawless among them regardless of the presence of evil and darkness around em. These pearls today are screaming at her to accept all this just like once these were screaming at Arnav to accept her purity . These were floating around and being thrown but now Khushi is collecting em and Arnav will put em in one Dori...one chain...one thread.The beauty is Khushi never knew these were in his possession but today these are putting her in the ocean of guilt deeper than ever but at the same time bringing her his true feelings for her at the surface

He threw these pearls in Episode 55 [I did in detail there] and today those are back right where these belong...just need him to string em.

Today in her dream she visualized how their  "heart got connected together"... First  pearls  as this arrogant broke her abyss and entered her soul but she was bruised  , Second, Mannat ki chaabi  which unlocked their hearts by the forces of divinity and the Payal which Arnav put on her to make her HIS and above all " made promised to protect her" (as silver Payal has always symbolized keeping away the negative forces)as I explained in Maha 57 . 

So collectively, Khushi in her dream is getting lost in this maze with fear of losing him  along with the guilt of hurting him which is pulling her in the riddles but this also meant to connect Arnav's soul to her ..Arnav will help her to come out of this riddle and she will find her love , her Arnavji...and He will protect her and their relation from every evil . That loop is closed today which started from Epi 1st  but the next loop of putting scattered pearls in one thread still needs time but Khushi will see a second sequence which shows her deepest desire for all of these  pearls in one thread and Arnav will fulfill her dream.

 

Naniji also helped broken Khushi  to understand Arnav and his painful world. She  told her everything which can make her understand better as compared to Anjali... "Aur chup gaye ek bade se pateele ke bartan maan aur atak gaye, phir bartan ko kaatna pada" -[Brass symbolizes judgment upon adulterer , but also reprsents self repentance and self judgment ] as he will connect the dots to repent "mujhe aur khuch nahin chaiye Khushi..."[ I don't need anything else Khushi...] is his next destination.

Khushi's worries over Naniji's statement..."phir to Arnav ji ko bhi chot aayi hogi" [Arnav must be hurt too]...Yes  in this whole repentance process he will suffer, he will  take all "Chot" which he inflicted on Khushi...Naniji's "woh Chotey hain,chotey...chot ki khaatir nahi,murga banne ki khaatir roye "[ He is Chote, he cried for being chicken not for getting hurt] ...[Chicken , according to African beliefs ...guides souls and according to  Chinese Zodiac a decision maker and Sharp while  it also wards off evil and Lust]...Yes if Khushi will reveal this serpent , Arnav will decide to cut him off.

   

Naniji's next words are golden for Khushi to tie this whole thing up..."galti unki rahi...hamre chotey hai na agar woh kisi se pyaar kare hain aur unke liye kuch nahi kar sake to khudi kohi  sazaa dene lagat hain...aise hi hain hamaare chotey"[ chote punishes himself if he is at fault and can't do anything for the person he loves the most]These words are tying up with Anjali's words,"Chote sab kuch baant sakte hai par apna dukh nahin..."[He can share everything but his sorrows and pain]

Khushi's fear, worries  and  his decision of going London now is going to hurt him but as Naani says "aise hi hain Chote"...[that's how he is] - if he realizes,that it is his mistake and if he sees he can't help the person he loves the most (Di ke laadley...murga khud hi ban gaye)... then he punishes himself , as for Anjali's sake he did punish himself that dreadful night and has to live with serpent. Now his soul has a burden as he has suspected and hurt  Khushi  so for this realization ,he'll punish himself...

Remember,Buaji explained Arnav the "Chillies" Khushi's virtues and today Naniji did the same for Arnav to Khushi .

 

The sequence of fbs reel in front of her with true and honest  picture of Arnav's actions "aur aap jo humain bachane keh liye khud ko chot de rahe thay..."[u were hurting yourself for saving me all along]...when , Guest House night he realized his mistake ,Rain night by giving her coat he made initiative to correct his actions of making  her suffer, wounded wrist scene ...realization of her pain which in return hurting him all along ,the bandage scene ,action towards correcting his mistakes by healing her wound and the last one, leaving the hands at the airport shows the guilt has shifted the anger and hate as he is leaving with the knowledge of his wrong actions of hurting and crushing Khushi...

 

that's why..."Khushi mein ne tumhain hurt kya ...mein khud ko khabi maaf nahin kar paoonga" ..[Khushi I hurt you and I can't forgive myself ever for that]...He can't forgive himself what he inflicted upon her all this time and then he will emerge as a true protector of her dreams...The protective connection of heart to soul has completed and locked today and now  it's the  time  to  just embrace it and that will complete it's coarse during Telepathy.