Episode 216

Episode 216

The wounded souls...

"The wound is the place where the Light enters you.

Jalaluddin Rumi

KKG had joined with Singh Raizada meaning joined hands with Canteen guy.Oh! Anger is oozing and he has to take her down today.He won't let it go and he didn't...It was her or Shyam , whatever but his temper was way too much.

She was immersed in "kkgsr dabba service...," sitting on the floor taking care of business...

"just write the name properly."

and here he walks in...Like a volcanic tremor.If you ask ,she is no less than him either.Since the day one...

His way of meeting the clash with her is always grabbing her, bringing her closer to him, seems like his longing to have her in his embrace tight but hate what he has and can offer but inner lining love demands to have her right next to him and that is how he does.

But wait a minute, her smile, her tiny finger up telling him that she is talking, oh his anger is so down but he was disturbed way too much since he saw those roses, Shyam , and above all that crib of an unborn child...he is an orphan, he can feel this to his guts.What will he do when his sis will know about Shyam.Is he really change? No, he can't be.His mind is at war , his heart was at war seeing Khushi that much happy today.There was a search of peace and that could only be possible when he will take it out and none other than Khushi...Yes, she is crawling too much in his skin.He needs her , period...

A sharp intake of breath seeing the papers all over on her pink bedsheet... "What the hell?? Clean this room, now..." Of course, he has to show her who is the boss...

But she is busy speaking on her bluetooth. ,..he snarls ,steps forward and yanks off the receiver.He is getting edgy as usual whenever he is disturbed, violence, getting physical and raising his voice or turning around when he gets trapped by the insensitive acts of this life, his past, his present, and today he is no less.

We have seen the similar intensity in guest house when he was snarling and cornering her and today is no difference.

But she is no mood to accept his bossy nature, as she has made this pact to herself that she won't cry and won't accept defeat till he says to her "go away..." Totally shutting down by his pain, his wound...which she feels the very same and when the last time he told her she was hurt and did try to ask him but he won't tell, so what she supposed to do...

Her insistence that she did nothing wrong as this is her side makes things worse...just like the worse condition of her side, the mess on her side...Yes , a mess ! this mess of her and Shyam is the one which is taking a toll on his heart.One second he feels he is losing himself in her again beside hating her and the other side he feels ripping apart for his sister...a mess and he likes order...

"Everything is in my control and will be " A frayed state of mind he has today.

She is in no mood to back down... lunges forward to grab the Bluetooth... a tussle carried on...his big arm is out of her reach , and that brings her closer to his face...right next to him way too close , how can she not feel it.Eyes move to his face...his eyes get fixed on her...oh ! that was what he is longing for her.Her essence, her proximity...her heartbeat next to his...Rabba ve slides in...

and cut ...

Di walks in hearing Khushi call...and

Khushi tries to cover up.She tells di that she is so happy over her business, it's what she has always wanted to do... and now she can die in peace.

Death...a mere word but he felt it to its guts as he turns around...

It gets to his brain and rages him when di talks about her life to Khushi...

"May God grant you my life too..." I usually heard this from my elders, I found it strange though as I believe everyone has his/her own granted span of life.No less or big...

Anyway, the rage is reaching higher and higher...as he jumps in " Stop it di!"

He fueled up the night when Di was talking about his wedding , making him convince to marry by talking about her death.She saw Khushi kissing him that day...and he was lost...

Oh , his anger is reaching to hikes with Khushi when she repeats the same words with Lakshmi being immersed in Di's love...

This death ...this word enrages him...reminds him over the night when his mother died, his father died.

This is the similar situation when in Sheesh mahal Khushi says "What if it happens to your di...what if your di's marriage gets broken...???" and he breaks her pearl's thread.

No difference tonight...but we are going to the point that he will feel the same for Khushi's death...Heer Ranjha ..on stage when she tells him "I will die..." even in that act he feels this to his guts...but right now he feels for his sister...

he turns slightly..."Enough!!...This whole death thing is disturbing for him.

and the night crawls in...a cocroach who crawled in their lives...Shyam's words, "Rani Sahiba is a hurdle...Hugging Khushi...Rani Sahiba has no meaning.Khushi's words..."then leave Anjali di..."

Oh, everytime when he sees himself falling for her as I said above...his war within starts...

A stamped moment is what pulling him down.Tonight I am seeing the same face of ASR what we have in Sheesh Mahal...

"just stop it!" oh , he riles

"she's my sister, nothing will happen to her. i won't let it happen... no matter what you try.

Barun is amazing in this scene portraying pain...His eyes are pouring rage here , a loath for her...She is danger for his sister...Oh, his care and love has no extreme.

"What?" she is totally puzzled...

"what have i done."

Yes the same look of 200...when he tells her "he is wounded...by her?"She is hurt again listening ...is she the reason? the very same way she says in their wedding night? "Then why are you hurting yourself and me???"

and then I felt these words to my guts...he is tearing apart innerly... "If I don't say anything doesn't mean I don't know anything. "

Then here is the question of Khsuhi? What did I do? in my mind...why don't you just tell her? ask her?

This is a sign of fear , fear of losing her...what if she says that she loves Shyam then?

Then this thin thread of them which is keeping him closer to her will be broken too...

Oh, He is completely making no sense for her now...Shyam and Her , her and Shyam...is getting him ...you can see and feel it.

she is looking at him in her bewilderment... he is enraged.She raises her voice when he tells her to lower the voice...and then he gives her "chot" his way of grabbing her ...oh that intense longing...to keep her close...she is slipping through his mind set thoughts and hate...

He drags her to the poolside, because he doesn't want anyone to hear, she speaks of her pain, her wound... and he says ,because you have always deserved only pain..."

Oh! now it is her turn to be torn apart...but he doesn't stop there...

"whatever's happened to you, you deserved it... in fact, worse than this will be in future."

...He is not done...he wants her to break tonight the very same way as he is breaking inside each second...

"what you want you can never get..." Oh that gets her...

This is a terrible feeling...for both as they both felt that thing"Love" and broke in the middle...making them deserted but this LOVE will always rain on them here and there making this thread stronger with each storm

Her tears roll out, "I can't believe you're the same man who..."

Yes a man who was telling her that "is it important to cry at every ocassion ?" A man who said, "I need to talk...bas karni hai..." ..a man who gifted her bangles... a man who took care of her wound...took out the sharp piece of a glass from his own mouth...a man who worried the hell for her..." ran after the ambulance...

A man who poured out,"Our heartbeats become one..."

Then how can the same man be like this...

Oh! He is still not done..."your tears won't make me weak..." yes these are killing you ASR...

She is no less," i won't waste on you either from now on...a man who is ..."

and he hurts her again..."I said enough..." Her darting eyes shot back at him...full of tears ...he released her and turned around as usually...can't see her in pain.

and he hurts her by accident,

Ahhh...her sigh melts him...

khushi! ...and all the concerns rush through

"no, "She pulls her hand away

I derve worse than that, right! then let me..." She is not backing down...

a rim of tear u can see in him...

I love Arshi and this tug of hearts...this is the way they speak of their wounds as always...second day of marriage...I hate you

oh yes, I hate you more than you do...

I love Khushi...She doesn't sit without a fight...

Shyam intensifies the situation .They leave and he throws a meaningful look at her before leaving...

when he returns. a tension in him as Nani brought the "honeymoon" in them... . he tears up the tickets for bali... and she thanks him...absolutely felt so real hubby wifey thing.all this grappling and punching made it real.

The Nani and the family try to diffuse the fight here. Their attempt to improve matters in them is always visible...