EPISODE 189

EPISODE 189

~~~ Besieged Darkness ~~~

"Someone I loved once gave me a box full of darkness. It took me years to understand that this too, was a gift." 
 Mary Oliver

Phoenix has risen from the ashes yet is ready to put some one's dreams into ashes along with him.He is doing out of rage and ego for now yet he is not letting her walk through this besieged darkness alone .He is assuring her that he will be with her at each step.

Today Mamaji's words for Akash ,"Jhuk jao tou sada sukhi raho gey..."[bend down to find happiness] are coming in this picture as Khushi leaves home with her Rajkumar/Shaitan by bending her head down ,totally defeated , by looking at him last time who gives her way to move in front of him on this path of darkness and then followed her as he can't see her to be afraid of darkness any more .How ironically he is with her in this walk of thorns by putting those for her at the first place .Two  hearts are broken again second time by the same Rajkumar.He was the"Destroyer" as she ended up in the alliance of Shyam and for which she is being scared for forever but he was shattered in that process for saving him for more destruction which just happened to him today again. But Today unknowingly he became the "Savior" from the very person he had thrown his girl to. But again at the same time he became her "Destroyer" . At the same time today, the destruction of her heart is willful , carefully chosen with the intention to save his sister ..and this time it hurts more than ever as he actually owned it. Diwali night is revisiting again..chakarvyue...is back.

He is closing the door of deceiving light behind them to make new path in the darkness with new light, with new hope,and with new beginning.

Door closed the stigma for Payal but opened for Khushi as both are on different sides of the door.He is the one who was responsible for this mess is giving her respect back and putting other at the testimonial seat but unintentionally closing the door of storm for Khushi too by making her family safe including her.

Love the parallel wedding sequence.Akash and Payal are ready to exchange the garlands but Akash doesn't want to do it without his bother's presence.My grabber is Khushi and her anxiousness, her feel[mehsoos] for her Arnavji as both can feel each other's distress from miles away though not that strong yet.Arnav appears with composed ,quiet, and calm state after venting out.He passed Khushi without giving her any look and that ignites the flicker of anguish in her.  Her gazes gauge him and refuse to leave him any second .She wants to know the reason behind these dark orbs .The wedding proceeds with full swing and laughter.Mamaji's jokes is the one took my attention.silly me...

Khushi smiles along with others but that fades away quickly when her eyes land on Arnav's straight and unhappy demeanor whose dark orbs were just shooting pure disenchantment and anger at her.His steady glare was burning her to the core that not only baffles her but also concerns her.

The garlanding ceremony completes and Payesh walks for the next ritual . Khushi couldn't move first from his fixed troubled glare. She was more concerned for his silence and didn't want to leave him alone.She walks and joins the crowd as she has to be with her family in these rituals but couldn't resist turning back and giving him a puzzled look and that one confused glimpse of her becomes a catalyst for his move towards her as he was waiting for this cue.He strides fast by cutting across all the guests.He slows down near her  and walks beside her. 

Her questioning eyes meets with his denunciation and anger filled eyes. The very next moment, right in the middle of the crowd, he holds her wounded wrist and she winced with pain, pulls her away from the Mandap and drags her towards their Eternal Heaven [ Poolside]

 A long awaiting loop is closing here.At Dargha they both are walking parallel in the same direction as chadar is in between em and they have no clue about each other.The Mandir walk, after the bandagement, they are walking parallel in the same direction with distance in between em angry.On the hill walking with Payesh while Payesh in the middle together and they both had the physical distance but with eyes full of longing and yearning for each other.Today they are walking together with hate ,in between guests behind Payesh as a connection but in the same direction because from now on either hate or love they will be together.Must say one couple is walking with love and the other is with hate. How ironic,This parallel walk started with misunderstanding and ended again with misunderstanding...wow ...as this walk from now on will be persecuted...

Must say Barun with stoned ,frozen looks to versatile gulps for each emotion with tensed muscles along with Sanaya with her growing anxiety and performing all rituals by fixated glares was just awesome...I got  Sanaya back in this epi...  

Mamaji's second dialogue..."Dekho kaisey dono utawlaey ho rahaey hai eik dossrey se bhiya keh liye..."[Both are getting impatience for marrying each other] is coming in the picture but in a slight different way.

Deal is setting upstairs while the marriage rituals about to begin downstairs and before that Arnav Singh Raizada imposes a proposition with some severe conditions for the rituals to proceed by placing Khushi in a predicament and confused state.Darkness prevails in Khushi with disbelief after listening this. She looks at her Rajkumar with disbelieving eyes .She keeps riveting on his remorseless face trying to believe that is this the same Rajkumar who teased her yesterday to bring a smile on her face, who welcomed her with desirous and lit up eyes. 

Her disbelief and incredulity rolls down with tears as this Rajkumar Vs Shaitan just pierced an arrow into her heart relentlessly by besieging the darkness in her surroundings. She gives him a disdainful look which meets with his dark frozen gaze and she ends up with her lonely friends "tears".Those tears which move him always have no effect today.He waits for her answer and looks serene as he is in no rush while the family is getting tensed downstairs ..

Thinkable Moment: Khushi's words after which Arnav clutches the steering is making him clutch her hand here all the way to the temple to make her his.. " humare zindagi mein agar koi aisa hota jo humare saath rishta toh banana chahta hai par uss rishte ko koi naam nehin dena chahata to usse bada humare liye aur koi beizzati nehin hogi"  "[if any person who wants to have a relationship with mebut doesn't want to give a name, then that would be my biggest humiliation"]. That loop is closing here and for that he is doing a contract marriage which will stigmatize Khushi.  This step of him will leave a door or redemption and repentance for him later and he will be the one who will do whatever it will take to name this relation to win her with respect.

Khushi with barren eyes fixated her gaze at his cold hearten voice when Arnav laid down his terms and conditions which leave her with no choice. She is facing a heinous condition which is challenging the very roots of her values and beliefs. Khushi listens with tearful eyes but today her world collapses with her shattered dreams and her own words are coming alive "Sapno ki Duniya main hi rehna acha hai..." .Her heart and mind both couldn't fight any more with this Shaitan/Rajkumar. In these few minutes  she watched her  love  burning into ashes by a man she had considered her own who is a stranger now to her.But She is a pillar for her family ,she has to move on...but tears roll down at their own will. Khushi descends from her dream world to the reality and shakes off this darkness and comes down to the light, to her family. Arnav follows her in this matter and quickly assures his family and Akash and above all himself that everything is alright by his determined and fixated stare at Khushi...

The pheras rituals begin which make Payal emotional as her stigma is being washed away. Khushi lost in her collapsed and despaired world which she never shares with anyone just like Arnav .Shyam was observing their moves closely...

Her silence which is speaking with volume for him and making him numb seeing her in that state as well. Her beseeching and questioning eyes meet with his hawking and gauging ones.He knows this is not easy for her.

After teri meri his hawking eyes showed her ,he can't let go her off of his sight and today he is proving her.The marriage is complete. 

Buaji tells Khushi to put the Shagun thaal  to a side but my grabber is she asks Arnav to help her.Khushi by composing herself behind her tears picks up the thaal and hands it over to Arnav whose eyes are watching her each reaction so closely and I must say he is getting calm seeing her state as it seems he found the answers of his unanswered questions and disbeliefs. He is a man who thinks is betrayed by this girl and despises himself as well as her but still somewhere in the his stone heart he still has a softness towards her in his eyes for a moment and then he calcified to remain in his shell. These silent conversations and  interactions are being observed by snotty and angry Shyam whose twitches are broiling me here ..

Finally the wedding finishes with honor..both the sisters embrace each other with tears in their eyes,for Payal ...tears of relief as the stigma is finally washed away and  for Khushi... it is just the beginning of the end.Arnav turns away this time as her tears do make him weakened no matter what.He shows guilt in his eyes yet determined and adamant to his intention ..

As people begin to depart after wedding party and Arnav and Khushi stand there alone.Arnav is fidgeting trying hide his real feelings while Khushi stands there with hope in her eyes that  may be he will cut loose on her from his end but in vain.King's  stoned decision is ready to stone his Queen behind marble walls. Her distress and tears couldn't move him a bit.She gives him last look before marching towards the door to seal the proposed deal of him from her end, as "hum ne zuban di hai..." .Arnav starts walking behind her and walks past and comes ahead of her while  Khushi drags herself with hesitant and afraid mind behind him . Her each step is protesting against this dark fate which is against her beliefs but she doesn't stop either.She comes out of the door where her Arnavji welcomed her yesterday and today he shut that door behind her.My grabber is she gives him one last hopeful look before walking out and then bows down her head which Mamaji said earlier...Her last  defeated walk into the night as the door gets closed behind her from her family and loved ones who are the reason of her survival and existence for a while.No doubt Khushi walks into the darkness  but not alone as her Rajkumar is right behind her ,besides her as always,Hamesha!!! They both will win this darkness by their LOVE...as La's words will come to life..."Pyar sab se bada hota hai...Make sure use khabi jane mat daina" and Arnav will never let Khushi go !!!...He will make her his "Queen" and he will win her back...just like she will win him with her Love and innocence as The name "iss pyar ko kya naam doon "will only be achieved when they both will truly and honestly love each other without any condition and only for each other.

"Darkness cannot drive out darkness: only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate: only love can do that."Martin Luther King Jr.,