EPISODE Part 247-248

EPISODE Part 247-248

A Silent Roar...

"No Sound in this world can be louder than silence ,if anyone can understand your silence , they can never misunderstand your words"...unknown

Khushi on terrace ,all numbness was representing a "Silent Roar" to me.This episodes reflected every aspects of Khushi Kumari Gupta which makes her who she really is.If you remember my Episode 225, Her dreams [raisins] in Episode ...her Character traits [Red chillies] and Episode...Stars [Her beliefs] then all of those are coming together in this episode.Ironically she is on terrace with all these three things...Chillies, Stars, and Grapes...[it could be something else drying,tried my best but couldn't see it clearly but here is something drying ]...and waving Duppattas ...elements of Khushi's existance and beliefs...

Khushi for whom ,Arnav is always a strong pillar to lean on since from the beginning and "Shaitan and Rajkumar dono eik hi " is going to be coming in the picture after knowing the true reason of  his deep pain, His love for her and thinking her as a cheater but still in pain because of her.But at this spot her kinship which she always felt with him because of their past, Stars...parents, her faith has scattered...She realized that she is just a deal of 6 months and has no part in his life.She is stepping backward from his existence from her life and he is not a witness of it at all meaning from now on she will not let him see THE REAL Khushi who feels and gets affected deeply by emotions...She doesn't feel telling him "aapko kya lagta hai humain dard nahin hota..."no he won't see that...and that fits here.."kiss mitti ki bani hai yeh..."but she is thinking wrong here as he knows her more than her and won't buy that..."main tab tak nahin jaoonga...keh tum itna kaise gir sakti ho..." ...Why? He needs answers ...

 

Arnav had crushed her completely today up to the mark where the very existence of Khushi had died today by knowing the man who she loved more than her life ,who is the "Rajkumar and owner of her heart" ..believes that "She has no character" She has no idea that this man only believes what he sees and he has witnessed her in other man's arms whom his Di worships .True Reality which is a pure killer right now...

     

Her heart splintered and each splinter echoing a last sigh of death but he was unable to hear it because of his mounted rage .Love this shot where he is higher than her in rag...A broken Khushi could only stagger backwards with deserted strength, broken will ,shattered dreams, and abandoned soul as, her dreams have fallen down on the dusty earth like shooting stars ...If she was walking dejected, Arnav was walking away from her  with his steady gaze over her never leaving her visage ,scrutinizing her for reaction...But Khushi staying put and not following him .

Symbolism and connections:The setting sun, a sign of the forthcoming darkness .. The dried leaves suggesting the scornful relationship ..Turbulence is coming and the name of the turbulence will be Anjali...She will be suffering the most...Arnav's "Di ki Nanhi Khushi  iss Khushi ki wajah se barbad..." and Khushi's ","Anjaliji, Apne Aankhen Kholiye"  is joining here meaning...that she will be warned not to fool Arnav & herself  and to open her eyes and face reality, accept that her husband Shyam is a two timer but that is not the fact.

Loop is closing by opening another...Khushi accused Arnav as a "characterless" [aapka character Dheela hai..."] because he was mocking the holiness and purity of marriage according to her But Khushi's belief in institution of marriage is stronger as always and when he saw her on the terrace saying to Shyam to break an alliance to his sister, then his confusion and bafflement is correct , he is seeing two faces of a girl and no one can make any reasonable judgment out of this picture .His thinking her of "low character" makes sense, and at the top Shyam poisoned a true and weak lover in him badly by planting a seed of "doubt" and this loop will open again on terrace...that's why we are going to be from GH terrace to Bridge to cliff and then Terrace..."I love u dammit!' when the cycle of confession will complete...

 

Arnav standing outside the GH, having war within his mind and heart with the contradicting memories one after another  shaking his walls of beliefs. But times have changed. Blooming love has strong roots now and Arnav  has been emerged from ASR to fight for his rightsas  he has almost crumbled and suppressed the ASR faade. Today, the lover and brother are almost on the equal footing. Arnav knows that he was wrong, he knows his actions have hurt Khushi and he knows that there is something missing in his picture. His heart was restless to know the missing part of this puzzle but mind was justifying him as always. His heart was not ready to accept her betrayal especially because he remembered her innocent confession..."Aisa kyuon hota hai...",he remembered the hurt and pain she felt when she was reminded of her marriage and her shattered dreams for it. That night, he had not asked her for an explanation because that time he was still a cynical man and he still doubted her innocence and goodness. That time it just took one sentence for him to believe the worse but today he wanted to be wrong. Today he wanted an explanation,he wanted an answer and he  was expecting Khushi to come and give it to him.

Pondering connected dots: Once he was standing outside at this closed door yearning for her one look after "hamesha keh liye" among these Duppatta and he used to hold em to feel her but today these pieces of fabric can't reduce the pain of him either but the door of HOPE is open behind him...all he has to do turn and he does but not completely... 

 

He turned around from his thoughts, muddled after hearing her payal which soothes him just like his Ma's Kangan... a sound of peace and happiness , ..He stands there to wait for her to clarify her position.. . but he gets disappointed. Instead of  a heartbroken Khushi he sees a cheerful one who acted as if nothing had happened. Well ASR still has not learnt anything since Diwali. He still does not understand Khushi because if he would have, he would have known that Khushi will never show her pain and hurt to her family. He forgot her talking with her Amma..."Duniya keh ache pati"  would have recognized  that she is exactly like him because she hides her pain and hurt behind her cheery exterior and he does it behind his stern exterior. He would have noticed that he is the one who has seen her tears, her pain ,her hurt and her anger and only him, in the exact same way that she is the only person who has seen his pain, hurt, anger and tears. 

Loved the scene where Garima understands that something is wrong between  Arnav and Khushi but Khushi reassures her...but her saying "inn ki bidaii jo ho rahi hai..." indicates his leave for his movie...arggg

Khushi's act of hiding her pain behind her smile  slipped many times and didn't go unnoticed by Arnav "aisa dikha rahi ho jaise kuch huwa hi nahi.."and Amma too "aaj khuch ziyada hi bol rahi ho.." ...and even by herself...experienced so many times by myself...It's not easy to have a smile and lie for others' sake trust me.Yes Khushi is a sweetness in everyone's life"jitna meetha daingey kam padega..."..yes her life is at the verge of bitterness and no matter what it can't go easier or sweeter...because she is ROSE among thorns...one side Arnav's MU and taint on her character with which she can't live..." unki soch humare bare main itni..." and the other side Shyam and his filth.

Their journey from love and sweetness to bitterness, suspicion, mistrust, confliction , and guilty conscious ... My grabber is Khushi's painful turning around and bidding bye to everyone...I always hold my heart with this scene ,can't explain you...her tears are falling on me as I know exactly how is she feeling.She is keeping the picture of him and her in her embrace...how hard it is for her to even think or act without making her away from the only person in her life who she thinks as hers...Knowing she has no place in his life, marriage is for 6 months, she and her family has to deal with this shame and stigma and how will they deal with it...indeed "even too much sweetness can't remove this bitterness"... She starts her stress reduction mantra...talking and prattling about her happiness to see everyone and begins to take each one's name .. and gets halted by a possessive lover , ..."aur Shyam"..

They are in the middle of the road ,The place where all of their confrontations happened, the place witness of their journey, the place where Arnav runs away from his uncontrollable emotions because of Khushi. Even Today, he is in turmoil because of her and wants an explanation of his accusations with confirmation to get over his war in between his heart and mind..., the reason behind her bubbly acts as Her silence is killing him more. So , he starts instigation technique and makes a crack over her parents." tumhi kehti ho na keh wo tare ban gaye hai..." He poked her strongest Belief "atoot Vishwaas" ...

 Arnav's question to Khushi - "kya meri Maa mujhe dekh kar khush hain"? Today Arnav accused her of letting her own Parents down  but there will one day when Arnav will seek forgiveness from her Parents for accusing her of something she never even committed. "I am so sorry Khushi...iss contract keh khatam hone se phele  main tumhain paa keh rahoonga...I'll win u back Khushi..."

 

In return Arnav gets a Silent Roar...as His anger and taunts couldn't do much and then he changes the Chanel seeing her pain and rage..."Khushi mujhe batana zaroori nahin samjha..."[Khushi u didn't feel any need to tell me] and that weathers her Silence to a striking Roar which shuts him up in his tracks with a slight relief..."agar aapko lagta hai keh humare aur Shyamji keh beech main koi najaez rishta hai...tou aapki soch aapko mubarik ...humari taraf se sirf Khamoshi milegi..."[If u think me and shyam has any relationship then u will find silent from my side]..."Why didn't you ask me for an explanation on that night?".A question for which he has no answer or a question whose answer he knows but has never acknowledged that on that night he was scared, he was filled with fear and he did not want to hear that the girl he loved, loved another man.

Arnav churns and roars at his end "khushi, tumhari himmat kaise hui..."[ how dare you, khushi]...Khushi without backing down,""nahin hui... uss raat bhi nahin hui thi, lekin shayad humey himmat karni chahiye thi...taki cheekhke chillake kissi bhi tarah sacchai aapki kano tak pahunche..."[I  didn't dare that night either but may be  I should've  , the Truth should have reached u either by screaming or shouting ..." ]

Arnav by taunting "yeah, right... sach!"....She steps further without fear but with striking anger..."jee haan, sach! ... woh sach jisse aap meelon dor hai..."  [yes, the truth, the truth from which you are miles away.]...With softer tone and tilted  head to make sure he believes in her, "ek baar aap humse poochkar toh dekhte.."[If only you had asked me once, ] ..She tells him all"sach" and declares her HATE for Shyam, " She'd rather accept death  than having her name attached with him .." 

Arnav looks at her like gauging her and so wants to believe her when his brain brings out ASR in him and he steps forward with his ASR tone and BG score and declares  "chap gaya hai wo pal mere dimaag par ...Nahin mit sakta ab.[it has left a permanent mark and not erasable]..It is unbearable for him to see her in other man's arms...His heart wants to believe her but his mind brings another thunder in front of her..."Why didn't u try to tell me? , Why did u let my di make him God.?Why didn't you tel everyone his true face? Why Khushi Why?His words are pleading her to see how much she matters to him..He cups his face,"khushi, I am talking to you... answer me, dammit!.. main kuch poochh raha hoon..."...A big change in him here, a person who is always right, no need any explanation is pleading for one...with HOPE...umeed..keh shyad tum sahi ho..we will hear it again...But his past " tum jaisi ladkiyan paison keh liye kuch bhi..." middle class women can do anything for money... and he is in love with that kind of woman and that takes him to his edge...as Shyam's planted seed is growing as a plant... She has her valid reason if it would make sense in his hot mind that his di's life  would've been wrecked who he loves so much but He doesn't buy that.She barged with her blames" you saw what you wanted to see..." and he moves away in roaring rage and nasty taunts and insults,"enough !!! "main samajh sakta hoon ki mrs arnav sing raizada banke jo paisa, aram aur shaan mil raha hai usse jaane dena...koi pagal hi hoga jo isse chod dega..." [I can understand how hard it is for anyone as a Mrs ASR to leave the status and money ...only a fool will do that]...Even rabba ve cries over their spilling hearts...My grabber is Khushi still didn't understand that how the part she played in this MU.Soon she will understand and will move heaven and Earth to change Arnav's opinion of her.

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 Arnav loves her so much that it's beyond imagination and this is why Shyam could plant the seed of "Doubt". He will get Khushi back with the deal he made with her at GH when he repaired all the appliances; he said - "main yaad rakhunga kyun ki main nehin bhoolta, hum kal wapas jayenge".  He will bring her back with respect and trust ,not because of his Di or anyone else, but because he needed her the most. .."That day he wants her only for him.."Aur main..."...Yes"Main"  of a Lover will take place in this brother..."takey main tumhain apni zindagi se bahr nikal phenkoon" to "Main tumhain aise kaise jane de sakta hoon Khushi..." 

He walks away dejected. She jerks at the shutting  and walks  towards unknown journey by wiping lonely tear .A journey towards  over a broken bridge of hate and Love towards Shantivan where a new storm is emerging and roaring for both of them...

The day of marriage she walks to  with her roaring right by holding her maglasutre with a promise , she will win him ...today even she has lost her promise but her will to prove her right is taking new turn ...She will prove this "sach" ...A NEW PROMISE.."aapko sach suna hi hoga" as Broken Bridge " nafrat wala bandhan" which has been built a long time ago but she will cement it with..."Baat aapki hai ...fadak padta hai"...