IPKKND/Mysticaldivine[Old ArshiHamesha]: Episode 251

EPISODE 251

Atoot Bandhan

I will never Let you go!

"The reason it hurts so much to separate is because our souls are connected. "Unknown...

The beautiful opening of this Maha, Rising Sun which illuminates both of them with it's heat and light to remove all the darkness within.A sleepless night was written all over their faces, a dejection from one side was compelling the other to unveil the curtains of expectation layered with hopes and optimism." Unka hum pe bharosa karna bohat zaroori hai..."[ it is imperative that he trust me] ...Usually Sun shines the visage of the moon but moon returns the serenity of Light and peace over the tired ,Hot ,burning all day one .This is what will change over the course.The ASR can't return to his shell and is struggling to be away from one and only one person who he claims "he hates the most..."

The revelation has indeed increased the longing and the need of each each other especially in Khushi who can't see rejection in his eyes and he ca't bear the dejection of smile on her face.

This scene reminded me this song...

Tu chanda mai chandani

Tu taruwar mai shakh re

Tu badal mai bijuri

Tu pachhi mai pat re

Khushi opens the curtain to connect the Sun [ a star , parents's connection] to her Sun [ Arnavji] who is keeping his eyes closed from her "aapki anhon par waise hi jhoot ka parda hai..." [ your eyes are closed under lies].. but his heart and it's connection is disturbed seeing her withdrawing from all the connections, she has built with him so far.The connections of bathroom fights to her Dabba service to her cherish smiles just by giving him troubles has reached to an end ..."ek khamoshi"[Silence] from her side..."Humari taraf se sirf Khamoshi milegi.." [ u will get just silence from me ] ...The conflict of his thoughts in between these connections and understanding that she is changing him the way he was before "Khushi! kya kia tum ne room ko"[What did u do to the room?]...and her painful disconnection..."ise phir se apka bana diya" [I changed it again yours] and all he could do was get affected and yet pretend indifferent !!!.."kyun main uske baare mein itna soch raha hun...uska hona nahon kyuon itna pareshan karta hai...mujhe koi fadak nahi padta..."[Why am I thinking about her ...why everything about her is bothering me...No it doesn't matter to me]

Dhaga,thread which he broke and spread the pearls of her dreams is impossible for him to break as he is the one who made it everlasting by knotting it around them with his PEARL of OCEAN, his LOVE...The LOVE which is way too strong than hate ...This is the LOVE which halts him in his track and makes him turn to her which he couldn't do it yesterday while climbing up and made him realize later in his changed room that he can lose her...a FEAR of distance from his loved one makes him TURN around to grasp her beautiful shiny face but seeing her dejecting herself from her LIFE brings him down ...they both share a gaze of longing before changing directions...yes she won't come to AR to find any excuse tbe near him as she has no RIGHT to be there..."huamin aaj pata chala..."[I found it today]...

She who served him food always , leaves him alone ,halted after seeing no difference in his eyes...His rejection for her which she can't bear...She leaves him settling his own battles within his heart and tormented mind..."bar bar ussi ka khiyal..." [ all thoughts of her] ...

The righteous Khushi is a wounded soul right now and justifying her side by taking his signature to save this connection but her connection with her mind is getting stronger in case of Shyam and his filthiness but she will have to disconnect the ink from these papers after paying a heavy price.That price will make Arnav wake up as Sun did reach to his eyes but took a little time to convey the message to his brain to see a real divine connection in between him and his Khushi where no Zahri [ apparent] connection is needed as their soul has this divine connections already.

Today he can't break this dori of pearls which they share by Fate...He can't pull him off that "mehsoos" feel of air which tingles his feelings for her as fresh as the day one...right next to the poolside when he held her while stumbling with her...since then she has left a mark in him.He is frustrated and way heavy as it's his mother's Bday but all he can think is just "Khushi"..."main kyuon uss keh bare main soch raha hoon"[Why am I thinking of her?]

Her silence is killing her playfulness , Her silence is shattering the togetherness...Her silence is disturbing the ocean...collecting the clouds ...indeed Storm is on the way...but all he could show indifference..."yeh mat samjho ki mujhe nahi pata tum kya karne ki koshish kar rahi ho...mujhe koi fadak nahi padta "[Don't think that I don't know what are you doing..but it doesn't matter to me..]She who can't stand any rift in this connection, any knot in this Dhaaga...Tar but declaring that " "hum ne Dhaga jan bhooj kar nahin bandha par ab jab baandh liya hai tou..."[ I didn't make this knot but if we are connected through it then]..

Khushi's pain and the wound is getting deeper knowing he is in pain she is again the reason increasing it... For Khushi "hum unko jaane nahi denge...aise to kabhi nahi jab hamaare karan unka dard aur badh raha hai..." - time was running out and she had to see him... the entire background and foreground to Anjali-Khushi conversation and how it connected to Arnav who just want to be alone without Khushi..."Stop calling me Khushi..." he knew how she was being impatient and running around to show him the truth - he just wanted to go away without making it more difficult - but when he entered the airport he was still lost in her...only her regardless it is her mother's bday but Khushi is taking over unintentionally..life towards future leaving past behind ....tumhare saath bitaye huwe pal...yaad rehne lag gaye

Today she won't disconnect this communication the way she did in Guest house by leaving her phone down there for him look for her.She will find him...that is her determination..."hum aapko jane nahin daingey" [I won't let you go.

She reaches Airpot, rushes to the door but guards don't let her in, she has forgotten taking change from the cab driver...looking here and there ...a fear lingers and she calls only one person in her need...and the wind delivers her message to his carrier...

"Arnavji"...and Then This Mehsoos ...the connection of wind ... he feels her presence [Finally in years ...mehsoos is back]- and turns around,hey hey singswith them ...when both the lovers smile and get connected through their tears to see each other in the first instant...a few days back he returns his smile in hers while showering flowers...He feels home seeing her smile , and happiness touches her visage.

But ASR has to be rigid... he won't stop and listen...the mention of Shyaam is stabbing the wounded heart...walking away is the only answer for him and disconnecting her is the solution but is it???...No !!!Arnav , who couldn't walk away with the knowledge that she is waiting out for him , her tears are falling on his heart , that connection has crossed the barrier already ...he has hope that the truth will redeem the pain...

Pondering connected dots: On Diwali he stopped communication by telling her to go away.."challi jao yahan se"[just go away from here] and left her there on the other side of the closed glass window...but here she is on the other side of the two way glass door which is opening and closing...that means he is fighting with his own heart and mind and his heart is not letting him close the communication and over rides his brain which is trying it's best to cut off this wire of communication as he turns around...brilliant CVs

She keeps calling him till he moves on leaving her shattering over the other side of this glass but he can't move on that easily...not any more...and he comes back to give her that peace..how much he wants to release her from this agony..."aap ruk gaye..." [you didn't go...]..."tum ne zabardasti roka ..."[you have stopped me]...Heart is screaming to accept that I can't move on without you...but mind is taking shape of the course...one side wants to believe her and the other is pulling her apart along with him..."kyun kar rahi ho yeh sab?" [why are you doing all this.]

"kyunki hum aapse baat karna chahte hain!" [because i want to talk to you.]..Her fighting nature with him emerges out with determination... by using her right on him and kets her...a lover in need in him can't let her down.. They both are incomplete without each other..."how can you think that Shyam and I..." and that ticks him again and he starts moving again away from her..."mujhe iss baare mein kuch nahi sunna..." [ Idon't want to hear anything about this.]...She snatches her ticket but he takes it back along with her "pom pom"...for which he once yelled at La...because he can't see any one like his Khushi...very possessive thing in him..

"Koi hai jo yeh prove kar sakta hai ki hum bekasoor hain " [There is someone who can prove that I am innocent] ...BUT does Arnav need anyone to prove her innocence ..NO!! He has crossed that barrier...Khushi is innocent and her herself saying that is more than enough for him at this point ... She has exposed her scars to him openly and his bruises are unveiled to her ..."itni badi saza dain.."[give me that big punishment]...and his 'Bardash ab main nahin kar sakta.."...this is a pure heart talk of two lovers...he comes back and gives her 10 min...He is agonized seeing her proving herself...he doesn't need that...he can'ttolerate that...she is not giving him what he wants to hear...The crowd starts bumping her and the protector provides the shield as always...

He wants to move away as he can't see her in pain , in tears and he knows the reason too but his state of mind will hurt her more which is asking him to leave...justto avoid the tension for words and the arguments just breaking them in pieces and his raw painful wounds starts bleeding again after her revelation...""Di ne bataaya aap kyun ja rahe hain...agar aap ruk jaate..."[Di has mentioned ,why are you going today?] " which he doesn't want to share but wants to share at this moment...he will do later in her embrace and she will be his healer...

but now at this moment- he gives her waiting time to prove herself... "3 minute hai tumhaare paas..."( number "3" signifies masculine number but always brings victory...attainment) - he sees her panicking -She pleads , commands, forces him to listen to her"aapko sach sunna hoga.."[U have to hear the truth]..."tumne aakhri baar mujhse kuch manga aur maine diya.[you asked me something last time and i gave it to you] now I got a go...

And finally he gives in"kyun Khushi,...kyun fadak padta hai tumhe..."[Why it matters to you Khushi]...She embarks with her Right... "kyun...fadak padta hai kyunki baat aapki hai...issliye Fadak padta hai kissi aur ki hoti tou nahin padta...aur agar aap hi chale jaayenge to hum saans hi nahi" [Why it matters because It is you what matters me the most...not anyone else and if u leave like that then how will I breath]

Yes It matters to her to prove her innocence to him because she loves him, she can't live without him either and can't see any suspicious in his eyes. She would rather rise than fall , SHe would rather die than his refusal.

Now he doesn't need anything else but holds her in his embrace, he is speechless, he is stunned seeing raw truth in her eyes which he can't handle just like before when he couldn't see raw connection and tried to wash away..."mujhe koi Fadak nahin padta kissi larki se"... as this is a way of saying I care, it is a way of expression of their innermost feelings all along that shows a deep connection with which they are knotted together.But He has run away again just like before till this TAR brings him back to his Khushi and her innocence...as His heart is screaming that his Khishi is right but his mind still need time..."main ruka tha...kyunki kahi ek hope thi..."

She holds on to his hands..."mat jaye"...just like he connected himself to her on that dreadful night...by transferring strength, today she is transferring strength in him ...just like she stopped him to move away from her on Holi and connected him with the strongest connection of all in between them.

Today she is strengthening this relationship and even he is forcefully removing himself but with other hand he is tightening the knot by himself...Just like he made a promise holding her hand in the night that he will never let this angel go away...and he will do whatever it takes to hold her close to him..

He walks away by his last call but for him - walking away from her is the most difficult act - "aisa kyun hota hai jab aap hamaare kareeb hote hain to hamaari dil ke dhadhkane tez ho jaati hai..." - they are connected by heartbeats - tearing apart is never the way forward...

"Jab jo bura kaha uska koi matlab nahi...jab jo bura kiya uska koi matlab nahi...iss pyaar mein sahi aur galat ka koi matlab nahi...bas ek cheez ka matlab hai...ki main hamesha... hamesha tumse.."

These words make him realize the connection which doesn't need explanation because no matter what, he's been always in Love with her and this connection is way above all as La's words..."pyar sab se bada hota hai....

Soon ..."I don't need anything Khushi "will come to make this connection stronger...The connection of pain is what made them realize and questioning their feelings as always.

Khushi's tears halt him..."Kyun aisa feel kar raha hoon...kyun Khushi se door jaane mein itni takleef ho rahi hai.."[Why am I feeling like that?...Whey is it so hard to go away from Khushi..? He finally has found the Tar...the connection...And he turned...to go back to her...But.. an unknown person..[TIME] asks for him..."I'll be gone...but our connection is strong and "jo tum mehsoos karti ho who main mehsoos karta hoon...kyuonke humari dhadkanain ek hain"[ I feel what you feel as our heartbeats become one].. as Khushi is right ..."in sab keh baad hum aapko jane nahin daingey"[after all of this I can't let you go] and indeed he can't break this connection...a connection of hearts...Tar dilon keh...

"Oh, why did people have to be separated before they understood how much they meant to each other?"

Linda Crew

Yes he turned towards his Khushi as he always does...and from now on he will never let her go away from him either...but still they have to cross the barriers of pains to reach to each other's SOULS...