Episode 237- Part 238

EPISODE 237-Part 238

Unconditional Love ~~~

Metamorphosis -I

EPISODE 230

The cycle of phase changes is circling around Arnav  but his resistance to remain within his shell is still halting him in his tracks to come out of his shell, but The changes are happening within his armor shell which is thinning each second allowing him to feel and embrace these changes willingly.

 Anjali comes to Khushi to advise her on dealing with Arnav. "Chote does not know how to express his love and if you show love , he withdraws himself from it but he must realize the presence of love too and for that you have to draw him out of it" That night different colors of Khushi were spreading around him to bring his TRUE color out, even his Di helped him to see him through his inner mirror by keeping him facing a reality mirror of his Khushi and how much he loves her and today that love is blooming with all sorts of colors.Since that day he feels urge to remove her hurt , her every wrinkle in time and especially if the cause of hurt is him..Today that Titliya and Parmeshwari who brought him here just for a tease but her each tear still acts like a oil splatter as the day one on his heart.Love is reducing him indeed as his unconditional love has no boundaries not even hate can diminish it.

 

My grabber was that day Anjali used the word"Chote" not Arnav and last night Khushi used the same "Bechare Chote"When he complained that even at home he can't sleep in his bed.This is what is surfacing up , Chote and his past wounds which are hindering his powers to embrace or express his love.The trauma he went through at early age has taken his childhood with it.Those deep wounds have swollen his soul inside deeply.Pure love which is only meant for a mother"Maanwa Thandiyan chawan "[Mothers are like cool breeze of love] whose love has no limit and is the true "marham" for his deep wounds and only mother embraces her child's flaws without any expectations.That love is hidden in Khushi's smile and that's why her tears tear him apart but he is far from acknowledging the PURITY of it yet.His Khushi is the cause of his unintentional smile which spreads along his shattered visage and on which he has no control still couldn't bloom this flower of love completely in him to embrace the spring around him because he is still far from understanding her unconditional love.

Arnav's learning and realizing his hasty judgments as a NORTH head is taking new shape with echoing Khushi's words in return of his accusing her of a thief. He turns and meets with another reality which Khushi showed him once "Khudaari se jeete hain hum" ...as he eavesdrops Buaji and Garimaji's convo.He is understanding how the self respect and ego of these middle class people is everything.They can live without food and all but pride is everything for them and that one thing will make him understand Khushi and her actions which he always misunderstands as her acts and fake. I loved the moment when Arnav casts his right "Akhir iss ghar ka damaad hoon" and brings in the rations...without making them feel bad emotionally but in return a tinge of humor of his .. ."main khata bhi bohat hoon aur aap khilati bhi bohat hain..." [ I eat a lot and you feed a lot too]..brought smiles across everyones face even on Khushi's face.Loved her astonishment when he claimed himself as a SIL of this house.This is the thing which she always felt to the core of her heart and gave her strength.She saw a glimpse of strong hold on her Manglasutre which she did on her wedding night.She will win him!!!

 

 Today Arnav met with the unconditional love of Guptas and that made him relaxed ...,When he understood his happiness is all they want and can do anything for it made him feel home...when he understood that this family does not have any expectation from him, his armored shell begun to open.Today Chotte peeked out though  he has not emerged fully, he is still cowering in fear and how can years of darkness can come out to light instantly but slowly it will get used to it. My grabber is He is disapproving Anjali's words , he is expressing love in return of unconditional love... But at the same time he is proving Anjali right that he showers boundless and today he treated Guptas as his own. Today we are seeing Arnav struggling to come out of ASR's shell .

Khushi has been nagging him ,Unhain Amma Bolaiye na" about calling Garima Amma... but she is unaware of understanding the level of his turmoil attached with this word ...maa'...and instantly everything changes. He turns away as always to hide his emotions and vulnerability towards this haunted hurt that darkens"Maa"... and  as expected, he lashes out like a stone man ,"Meri koi maa nahi hain...mar chuki hain meri maa"...with raging and blazing eyes...this is a fact he has no "maa" she is dead.

...but my grabber is he was upset over the exposure of their private moment in front of the family whom he just getting acquainted with. Garima understands the depth of his pain and gets furious with Khushi's attitude with Arnav...

Khushi's forcing him calling Garima "Amma because she has only one reason ..her belief , her vishwaas which he just confirmed it that he is SIL of this house and she just wants a confirmation as a child too that his calling her Amma might strengthen her Vishwaas over this relationship which he claims is only for temporary.

He will be the one who will cry in Khushi's arms to let this pain go and relax from this pain as she will embrace him in her protective shell like a mother with unconditional love.

 

Here comes the most awaited moment for me ,must needed conversation between Arnav and Khushi ...to really vent out their turmoil and builded up assumptions and they did,...each of them was taking out their agony and uneasiness. If Arnav lashed out at Khushi "tumne jo bhi kaha usse mujhe kya feel hoga usska tumhain idea tuk nahin hai",[ you have no idea what I'll feel about what you've said...]

Indeed he did have a right too as Khushi said  but as he was so drown in his pain and without realizing his one statement made him halt in his own tracks "main tumhare saath iss ghatiya se ghar main.." .[ Low cheep house] ...he just called her home a low aukat place...without realizing that her life is attached to it...obviously Khushi's pain and her belief washes out in her tears...this is a true unconditional love of two people who can lash out without any halt in their fight but when pain reaches to the CORE of their heart , its heart beat changes the coarse of beat of their turmoil...He realizes instantly ...Khushi is insulted again and makes him realize that she never lashed out or will lash out  her anger against his family member but you have done this many times...He calls her softly"Khushi" but her heart is crumbled and refused to stay with him..

 HE SAID THE SAME on parents anniversary,"sab kehte hain keh woh samjhte hai par koi kuch nahin samjhta" [everyone says they understand but in fact they don't] so don't say that to me that you do understand and that took us towards his first sorry and today again he will be saying sorry in ASR style.

Garima and Buaji are busy cooking some tasty snacks for Arnav but soon get upset knowing about his absence. They surprised to see him with more bags as Khushi's words did leave a deep mark on him as always to change the coarse of his actions.. "I'm sorry Buaji, sorry aunty... main abhi ke liye sorry nahin bol raha hoon...mujhe phele itta gussa nahin hone chahiye tha...jo Khushi ne kaha who theek tha par"...[I am sorry Buaji and aunty, I am not saying sorry for now... I should not have got angry... khushi was right]...His "I'm not saying sorry for now" seems he is sorry for all the things he has done so far . This is Arnav Singh Raizada if  he thinks he is wrong , he rectifies immediately...and that's exactly he is doing here...and without getting off the point he admits ,"woh, main kissi ko maa nahin kah sakta..."[I can't call anyone ..mom]

Pondering connected dots:This is the very same arrogant man ,one night at the very doorstep once claimed "Arnav Singh Raizada Kabhi kissi se Sorry nahi boltha " and now is now apologizing  for his actions not once but twice ...!!What a change in mighty ASR, today his probity is connecting with acceptance and Buaji's "lamas bhara haath " [caressing loving hand] is making him embraced with this loving this family whole heartedly. "aap kiss naam se humey pukarto uss se hamara rishta toh nahin badal jata..." [Whatever the name you call me can't change our relationship] ...very IPK thing, acceptance of all without digging or tagging ...

 

Arnav Singh Raizada finally has entered the world of Gupta's where priceless love resides and nothing else...He will be running towards this vibrant place always for love, care and affection and that's why I mentioned above he was upset bursting out loud in front of everyone as he is accepting this as his own home...

Khushi returns home all weathered but returns,sight of relishing food golgappe Arnav's astonishing  look seeing her running and tearing the pack with her teeth so quickly and at the top spitting out the torn part is applaud able .He went out to bring her fav food to spread a smile on the face which drenched in tears because of him. Khushi in her excitement "thoda khatta thoda meetha thoda teekha..."[ a little sour a little sweet a little hot.] ..opened her mouth to gulp one but Buaji's thanking her Arnav Babua  who brought all this is making her to thank by dropping it on the floor.

 Khushi wants to eat the Golgappe which Arnav bought for her but  pride prevents her ...she is angry with him, so she is not going to eat his  stuff .."laad gov ke laye huwe golgappe... kabhi nahin khaoongi..." [I will never eat golgappa broght by laad governor..].but if I will not eat he will be blown up like golgappa in anger ...a very nice reasoning knowing her man and of coarse one  golgappa will not make any difference...and his eyes never leaves her either  for a second while sipping tea as he knows she can't resist "food" ...hey hey snuggles in with it's teekhey style when she gives it a try with her open wide mouth.

His amusement changes into desire in his mouth with his watery lips seeing her munching like that. His eyes never leave this  delightful and sensual sight seeing her engrossed with her fav food dipping here and there and taking right in her mouth one after the other leaving a trail of sour water trail for him to follow ...A sweet yet sensuous smile appears in his eyes ..so much desire to hold her and to  wipe those drops right from her luscious lips...her smile was blooming in his heart which gets peace seeing her happy and content.

:Their fights always bring out the most sensual and desirous scenes ever...From Sheesh Mahal till Dargha, From red saree  ,rain hug to their first SUV ride to look for Anjali, from character dheela to her falling down in his arms in the kitchen after Diwali , from wedding day to dhabba service poolside fight, from Bali's dance to his voice coming back, from heer ranjha to Rajkumar-shaitan till now

we see Arnav rushing out for his wife by getting her some golgappe ..He does not force her or coax her the way Shyam did. He allows everybody to enjoy snacks .He sits back and enjoys the sight of his family  snacking on something he bought with delight. Yesterday he made them  taste his world , today he gets them their world and enjoys their happiness with smile on his lips ...

 

He is enjoying seeing her feeding everyone in her own way and have fun when Buaji changes the channel to see or I felt she wanted to restore  peace in them.She urged Khushi to make him eat one"golgappa" from her own hands...that freezes the moment in between them at the opposite poles of the table...A shatir brain who is holding his desires [ water in all forms in this track represents desires, lust and all water here too...] all this time is changing into a hope that she might still loves me...feels me the way I do...opens his lips for reaching and touching that desire," ek kha loonga."

That increase Khushi's heartbeat and she walks towards him slowly and his hawking eyes never leaves her tracks which are directing towards him.She, full of confusion as always as she  had no idea of the reason why she is being tied to him but this knot is getting tighter each day beyond her control and she can't stop getting closer to him...

She comes closer to him with racing heartbeat which is meeting with his as both are aware of that... He wants to eat from her hand, he wants to be touched by her , caressed by her around his mouth, his savory lips ...a wish of a lover for an unconditional love... she is baffled and stunned by his act... hey hey glides in.He looks at her with his desired need of her which trembles her hand.She spreads her hand having mom's kangan like she is watching seeing her son getting peace and happiness ...Khushi leans forward as she is kissing him, He opens his mouth to give her ravishing moment to get enthralled with it...very intimate indeed when she takes the plunge to get charmed with this spell bounded moment while wiping his lips and mouth with the edge of her hand...and he couldn't stop relishing it either while gulping this teekh, khta, meetha moment which took both of them at the edge... Oh yeah buabji he did enjoy it and so did she  as this has completely touched her soul too , her quivering lips are telling the whole story to him which is blooming through his smile...They both  completely gave in for  this remarkable  moment where no one was present ..just them as always away from surroundings...and hey hey is confirming that...

Regardless he is making faces later to deny that he wasn't doing all to just make her smile...he was doing Anveiy Anveiy...Mein te Anveiy Anveiy lut gaya...but he was looking like Neem Ka Pakoda...cute Barun...really Cute! But that shows his feelings are surfacing up for her but his trust is still shaky and he is fine as long as she doesn't see his feelings for her...heart/brain war as Buaji indicated "hathiyaar paas hai par jang se dar rahe ho..."