Episode 336

Episode 336

I can't ...

A man sitting in his room, reeling the life and his gain and loss...everything around his di, his sister, a motherly figure who he was protecting since the age of fourteen...today he can't do what she was asking for...

"I can't live without Shyamji, Please give me my Shyamji..."

All a sister asked from his brother who could do anything in his power to do anything, to bring anything for her but the one she was asking for...

I love this shot...Brothers and their sister...NK who knows the bitter truth of Shyam and he was with Arnav but quiet..Akash who never questioned Arnav, his brother but today also couldn't take his sister's pain either.

Everyone is looking at Anjali, shocked at what she just asked for.  Arnav tries to explain to Anjali that what she wants is not possible but she won't hear any of it.  She tells Arnav that she accepted every decision of his and never said anything against him because she loved him but today, he will have to agree to what she wants.  Anjali ends up passing out and the family takes her back to her room.  

There, Dadi again emphasizes the need to bring Shyam back to the house and states that even Anjali has asked for him to return. But he makes it clear that Shyam is not in her needs...

She is not in this condition that she could make a decision of what is right or what is wrong for her...

As he leaves the room, Arnav reiterates that Shyam will never return to the house and Akash and Mami wonder if Arnav is making the right decision, based on Anjali's current condition. 

            

Nani and Dadi then have a conversation over the issue where Dadi states that whatever happened 14 years ago is happening again, but this time Khushi is the other woman.  She blames Anjali's current situation on Khushi but Nani defends Khushi saying she was not at fault at all.  Dadi recalls the time she met the other woman but the audience does not see her face. That reflects the past which had left a black hole yet it did suck the ability to differentiate the right and wrong from this woman.  Nani the wise matriarch tells Dadi not to compare Khushi to the other woman but Dadi refuses to listen and leaves. But today, it was clear that she does know that her son was at guilty and that is why she hid in the ashram, leaving her grandkids because her unconscious couldn't face may things...isn't this a human nature especially when you carry one ego chip on your shoulder...

I really didn't understand the stretch of this matter of Shyam ad Dadi by CV.Yes, they are paving the path through Khushi as a SP good DIL yet, in reality, this doesn't happen.Sorry. manhandled by a man and then bringing back that man back to the same place, what logic is behind this?

Now Arnav himself did that same thing on that night and blamed Khushi, without telling her anything he punished her... BUT the problem was his own heart who fell for her that very first day when they met. He tried all, she denied all but the thing became clear in that abandonment that no matter what all he wants is Her...She realized all she wants is Him...

Phir kyuon aapke jane ke baad hum aapki rah takte hain...

and he stated clearly...you know Khushi when I am close to you I want to go away but the moment I go away all i want is to be with you...

This love which they tried to run away is their own shelter from all of this mess, pain, Dard...

Now sitting by himself, being helpless, deep in pain and thought to remember Shyam and his scumb words, while the very same person who is the hurdle in Shyam's way to Khushi is asking for him...

Why?

Oh, well in my eyes, it is Arnav's fault as I explained above...why didn't he explain to her, tell her the truth in clear words...She doesn't know, why is he keeping things from her, even the whole family...What is stopping them?Anjali is in this condition because of all...He knows Shyam's truth, he knows Shyam is dangerous and wrong for his sister, he knows how to keep Shyam out of his sister's life but now that sister is the one asking the very same...yes she is hurting him and he is very much vulnerable but he is at fault too.

He knows, his unconscious knows yet he won't accept it...A frustration makes him throw the vase in front of him...and Khushi walks in...

She looks worried, yes she is worried for the very same di but seeing him like this she gets worried more.She knows he is fighting against demons of his own...perhaps she walked in to talk about Shyam again seeing Anjali's condition yet seeing him she becomes quiet...

There was no question that he needs her badly at this moment...

He looks at her and says nothing but feels her pain, she was the one who was getting blamed for all and he knew it...I love the way his demeanor gets so soft...just for her

 she walks in and starts picking up the pieces without looking at him, making him feel awkward but he doesn't want to hide anymore, he wipes off his tears the very same way he did during Holy...and he sits and joins her... 

She looks at him a bit surprised but doesn't say anything knowing this is where she has to wait until he reaches out... 

She turns and is about to go, when he reaches and holds her and turns her gently, making her sit by him. He asks"Kuch kehne aye theen..."

He can't leave her, he is her protector, she is his strength, love him the way he is keeping his hand in her lap holding hers...

 He knows she is taking all and he needs to be her support the very same way she is his, his subtle voice and gentle way of handling her is so visible how much he cares of her than anything out there...especially in Shyam's case...

She looks at him, many emotions on her face, looking childlike almost,trying to find words ... in between all, Dadi , Anjali and Arnav himself too...In the hospital, now at home, by Dadi and Anjali...absolutely not easy for a bride whose prince promised her to have all the seven skies but now even the very same ground was getting snatched...but he loves her dammit!

   

"Wo hum...hum ghar ja rahe hain..."

Going  home

and here comes two beautiful natural words

"Mat jao"  Don't go

She doesn't want to leave either, but she knows this is not a right thing to do and doesn't force her either...

She knows he needs strength and he gets from her...how can she not be there for him... She looks at his dejected state and doesn't think twice...

"lekin ek minute ke liye baith toh sakte hain." [ I can sit for a minute]

A wonderful moment for these words woven with the purity of her heart and he smiles vaguely... She puts her head on his shoulder and he leans in embracing her...a wide angle shot ...both together reflection is laying in front of them...beautiful ehsas...

Later night, both are reeling the memories they had made, yearning to be with each other at this moment sitting away from each other in their own rooms, a small yet strong bond, their heartbeats one...his name in her palm embracing two hearts around beautiful thought...

                  

the next morning she comes and faces Dadi's remarks and hateful looks, clearly making her feel she is at guilt...She comes out of di's room...he stops by her.

Eyes concerned by her tears and her lies, she can't lie he knows...he feels her pain, holds her cheek, pulls her closer and kissed her on her forehead right there in the hall.Does he care of anything but her...nope...

 He knows she needs it, the very same way he needs her and she knows it...two hearts one beat... but here comes out melodrama to pave path of Khushi's guilt to develop a strong belief to go ahead and bring Shyam back for di's sake who He loves the most...yes, this was the main writer's thing but felt flat to me. sorry, no offense as I see it this way...Khushi should never ever be involved in Shyam's case then I could have peace but here the matter is not digestible...

But I did feel his pain that he was feeling himself responsible for her tears,