Episode 113=Part 114

EPISODE 113-PART 114

Diwali….Part 5

[Tu hi Bata mere Maula -4th time]

What a night where darkness is prevailing inside and outside the door.Inside she is facing the wrath to say yes for a deceit who is waiting for her with open 

arms . Outside her heart is awaiting with his eyes who are not ready to leave her tonight at any state…..at any cost

na paas aa sakain hain.na door ja sakain,…Raba…..

Arnav with debility"tumne gadi mein chhor diya tha,"[you left it in the car]. He came back with her wallet but why..Khushi with bafflement…with questions .why is he here again ?

Pause here:This is the wallet which she is going to clutch tightly later as she is clutching on him...

He hands her the wallet, eyes dark ,cold but still with a flicker of firmness "tumne gadi mein chhor diya tha... "

Khushi like a statue,no words…….while Buaji intervenes and calls him in vehemently like her own son"babua…andar aao na "[come in son]He will be loving and caring her later like her own son...

Here he is first time meeting her father,the most important person in her life.His concerns for her family leaving another "nahin understand " moment in her mind .He bids good bye after saying "happy Diwali". He gets another convulsion "Nahin amma inhain meetha mana hai"[he can't have sweets] from Khushi's concerns for him.[hubby and wifey talk]What a night where in this dark Diwali the light of their love is still flickering .They share their moment quietly.Another ritual is done ,groom in his in laws for the first Diwali.

 

His gazes are still refusing her sight…."shukriya..." [thank you ]she said... in tension. , she's perturbed and disarrayed within as you can feel this discomfort in each of her move here………[it felt she was thankful for him to come back]"humara batwa lautane keh liye..." [for returning my purse]

He stops, clenches his jaws as he had enough of her resilience against his wrath and every move of her tonight is bubbling his lava to erupt and this is the last straw in it.He wants to break her to keep his shell on even its shattered one.My heart goes down when he turned with his stone exterior behind of which a king , a young man wants to embrace her queen in his arms for eternity but he is on a mission to hate her as much as he can to get his control back and he got another reason to distend here……[just want to hug these both]

"apni cheezain yahan wahan chorne ki aadat hai tumhain. jaise apni payal mere pool par chori thi... tumhari payal mere paas thi iss baat ka koi galat mattlab mat nikal laina... yeh mat sochna eik amir adami tumhari payal ko apne seene se laga kar baitha tha...Mujhe in sab se koi fadak nahin padta" 

Translation:stop leaving your things her and there like you left your payal by my poolside, don't take any wrong meaning of it that some rich  was holding it near to his heart ,it has no meaning for me and that is the last nail in the coffin.[My heart breaks in million pieces with her as her first love who made her feel which she never did before is telling her all this that she is nothing …..]

Khushi in abhorrence and revulsion with baffling around his concerns,care , and delicacy while not letting her out of his sight the whole night ,putting her payal on her and above all luring his electable lips near hers……"Koi Matlab Nahin Hai"[has no meaning] by emulating ASR…..

Arnav like an ankle biter going in for ruthless and intimidating way to kill her innocent spirit,""shayad tumhare liye hoga..." …"tumhain toh laga hoga keh tumhari zindagi ban gayey." ….."mere liye uss baat ki, ya tumhari... koi ahmiyat nahin hai."

Translation:  maybe for you it is.. you must have thought your life is set now. But For me neither you nor that thing has any importance.Here is proving her "haan nahin hai Dil ASR keh seene mein…"[ASR does not have any heart]

Sad Raba Ve slides in to increase the pain…..to intensify her sudden reaction in her rejection "meant nothing" by the very first man who meant everything to her.

Pause here:He still did not give any answer of her questions or that is his Shatir Diamg came up with in her questions so he can tell her you and your payal has no meaning even if I did all of what my heart compelled to do at that momet.

Raba Ve changes to Tu hi bata mere Maula[fourth time as this is the new beginning of new phase of their life]….

Khushi in tears jerks up by his slamming door.Her tears makes him "kamzore" but he is the reason of these scattered pearls all the time.

PONDERING CONNECTING DOTS: He will make this whole world pay for her tears Shyam,Dadi,Garima and more and will do what ever will it take to bring her smile back……."bas yehi tou mein chahta tha keh eik bar tumhare chehre peh smile aajaye"[I just wanted a smile on your face]   …..all the way "humara eik aansoo aap keh dil ko hazar bar chot pohnchahta hai"……Har bar[my each tear hurt your heart.Arnav…every time]

Her clutching her wallet shows how strongly she is still clutching on Arnav….…..
Her ambling ,holding and sitting every move tells stance of her broken and shattered state even which turned into completely break down when Payal reminds her about lost anklet….

Khushi in mortifying state"uss baat ka koi matlab nahin tha, jiji."[It means nothing jiji]

She ran into her room ,locked Tu hi bata BG scores high notes in her convulsion state.Khushi with excruciating pain by hugging herself with endless tears, which are rolling down without control monotonously…..[ I feel like hugging her badly]

Gar pyar in ko kheeche takrar in ko roke…Raba…

Arnav roaming around aimlessly like a stone figure pretending without heart but her pearly face is roaming over and over in front of his eyes pulling him in the vortex of love and hate  as pyar and takrar…tu hi bata mere maula in the BG intensifies to bring these two who neither can live with each other nor stay away from each other .Her sniveling is unbearable as it always make him "kamzore"……as he halts the SUV by closing his eyes leaning his head backward in his turbulent state as there is no way to run for Arnav Singh Raizada this time as he can't hide anymore from the pain he caused her……[I want to hug him too so he can let it go]

Raba……Iss pyar ko kya naam doon

He just refused to enter this paradise which Khushi created for him with arousing yet beautiful feelings like roses to enter which he crushed today with his own thorns .

PONDERING CONNECTED DOTS: He will be cherishing the rose of Khushi and will learn to just crush Thorn [Dadi and Shyam]not Rose in the garden of love by his mother's guidance.He will come to her to keep her for eternity.

He remembered how her pearly tears were shedding and falling from her eyes during the announcement of his engagement' intention to marry la then  her embracing la and her teary and questioning look at him, eyes were moist,only  her tears just tears which are making Mighty ASR "kamzore" [weak] yet "Arnav Singh Raizada ko kissi larki se koi Fadak nahi padta"[Not a single girl matters to him]

 

One side A man who just broke her in million pieces but can do anything for her life her father and her family and other side the other man who is playing deceitful games with her Sita like wife and is ready with his slouchy games tonight to sting this middle class family's honor and above all can manhandle and use a poor father as a weakest link to get what he wants "to play with the honor of a young girl "if she will not accept his marriage proposal .

She is hurt and can't see the truth behind father's hurting eyes or may be it's written that way …..as Buaji's pressure is increasing with her blackmailing on an orphan regardless of Garima and Payal's intervention once in a while but the Lava which was building up this night flows up with the sense of responsibility towards its family especially towards Babuji…..

She remembered the payal and his reverberating words ""mujhe iss sab se koi farq nahi padta, [doesn't mean a thing"] she finally retreats and gives in. 

theek hai" …hum tayar hain"[ok I'm ready]

Pause here:Love this girl and her "himmat"[courage] she is full of flaccidity and resiliency as her heart is broken but not determination and strength.She is Khushi not for name's sake only.In my POV if he did not announce his engagement with La ,she would never said yes either no matter what .For her he is another woman's man now…… 

Here we can close those six circles "chakravyuh " [which I discussed in 109] as Khushi put herself in it and all those relations will shape up according to that.One man's complexity is pushing everyone's life up side down but may be this is "Bhagiya" Fate which will bring a lot of devastation in their lives and that day Arnav Singh Raizada will realize he can't write Fate by himself…..but before it Khushi will give her reminder as a warning during her bandagement "aap ka haath pakad keh likhwaya hai….."but he will not listen to it regardless he will be in the Mandir….BUT HE IS THE ONE who will bring Khushi out of it and will place each relation to its place but together having her hand in his ………

What a night?Two young people flushed  with their immense love and care for each other but ended up in tears for each other ..

Arnav said yes to run away from love to keep his beliefs "not a single girl matters to me….means nothing to me"

Khushi said yes to run away from that belief which means nothing to her now for which she was going against her family and saying No to Shyam…..The reason of Her Dhak Dhak which means nothing now as she got the answer of "nahin understand" in her version…..

A deceit has won just because truth was not faced  and embraced by one man but in between these two a PURE pearl has been muddled and scared…..

Two parallel scenes where two sisters know something is wrong with their siblings.

Anjali,"your eyes can't lie to me…Why do I feel that you are not happy"

"kahin tumne yeh faisla jaldbaazi mein toh nahin liya na?" you didn't make hasty  decision , did you, asks di.

He stumbles with those luscious lips in his mind which are still lingering their thirst in her conscious.He has no answer ….

"chhote, hume batao... tum khush toh ho na?" chhotey, tell me, you are happy arent't you?

He turns around as always he does that during running from the truth.

"of course, di." Liar liar heart on fire…..can't even act prpoerly"main khush hoon." [I am happy.] His Di's happiness is more important but today it doesn't seem that important…. 

Di is happy and yes when chat is about wedding so Jijaji will be peeking in….."chote, jab faisle dimag se nahin dil se liye jaate hain na, tou sab accha hota hai." [chhotey, when decisions are taken with heart and not from the brain, then all goes well. ] .hmm…... 

Pause here:So you think your decision by your heart is right….you are so not there nave girl…..Your scoundrel hubby is lusting over others behind your heart my dear….

In life heart and brain plays role together that's why Khushi with heart and Arnav with Brain goes together and it shows the importance of both.

Other sister with concerns,"tumne yeh faisla dil se liya hai na?" you've taken this decision from the heart, haven't you? Payal asks khushi.

Jiji, I have decided now, and did you see how happy everyone was and that is important for her more than her own happiness….

"aur tum?" and you, Payal abides by with her concerns.
Khushi with pain behind her mask trying to hide but Payal keeps drilling with questions, are you sure? …..didn't you take any hasty decision, did you?

And that took khushi to the memories of the poolside with her anklets, where she has this new experience with the man of her Dhak Dhak…

Khushi with her brain<"kuch cheezain bas yoonhin ho jaati hai... bina soche... bina samjhe..." 
[certan things just happen like that, without thinking or making sense...]

Payal does not pay attention and talks about her engagement... and Khushi abhorrently hears him announcing, "hum shadi kar raha hain..." [I am marrying with La]

She with excruciating pain within sees him with La but he is looking at her why? And that confuses her more…
Rabba vey rubs in with his reverbrating words "you mean nothing to me"She answers payal with firm tone ,"whatever has happened, I am ready to forget it" and that is Khushi's trait unlike ASR who has just anger on his nose...

Symbolism and connection: She is unaware of his reality as you remember her reflection in his room while he was coughing as she was not looking at the mirror..delusional judgement ..if she knew she will take care of him by herself and she will do that by smacking his face [love that part]

Khushi is determined to move on,"anyway, i am not going there any more."which makes Payal confuse…

Khushi ,"Devi Mayya hain na, woh sab sanmbhal lainngi. [DM will take care of everything."]

Pause here:How badly she needs alone time with her mother DM who is always there for her …One day Devi Mayya  will make him to  be "Hamesha Sanbhalta rahoonga"

What a night ?The night which ends with despair on both sides under the stars with their parents along with their hearts who can feel it and know better now and one day she will command and he will obey with big  SMILE……and with that message this night is prevailing to its end……..What a Diwali?...

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